Current Mood:  October...

Current Music:  "Turn My Head" - Live

 

NOTE:  2016 10 12  03H05 EST  Oct 1994 -  can't sleep... ramblings...




Oct 1994

 

When he put that hunting knife to my face, to my throat while

he was squeezing it, and then sliced the knife across my body,

I don't know, it changed everything in me from that point on. 

It's hard to explain, but maybe you are able to picture it?

 

I don't expect anyone who's not been through it to

fully grasp each and every step of this situation.

But I throw it out there, in the hopes someone will get what

it was all about, and what it would've made anyone feel like...

 

The hunting knife, you see, it came out of nowhere,

after a vicious type of beating on me which left me in a pool

of my own blood.  His intention was to kill me 'cause he couldn't

deal with himself... it's what happened, what I still deal with today.

 

It changed me forever is the absolute truth of it all now.

As much as I don't want it to have had that effect on me.

I scream, I cry, and I sink with the memory of him...

And I just can't sleep anymore, for fear he'll get me there.

 

Him and other haunts are alive today...

He killed me that night,

yet I was revived and I survived.

But at what cost one is left to wonder?

 

No blessing in this miracle,

if you ask me quite honestly.

He took me, annihilated me,

I'm still alive but look at me now...

 





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Written on 2016-10-12 at 09:17

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Phoenix
2016-10-15


Dead Poet The PoetBay support member heart!
I think you are very brave for putting this story out there..a hell of a lot braver than the devil who hurt you. Thank you for sharing this, I appreciate it, and I can see the pain within the words. I'm so sorry that happened to you.
2016-10-13


Lawrence Beck
What a terrible thing to have happen. How amazing it is that you've been able to make a very good poem out of it. Look at yourself again. You have prevailed.
2016-10-13


ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
This work has me thinking , deeply.
Ken
2016-10-12


Thomas DeFreitas The PoetBay support member heart!
I'm so sorry that you went through what you describe here. I can't imagine. Sending thoughts of compassion your way. I am so sorry.
2016-10-12


alarian The PoetBay support member heart!
c'est une histoire vraie? primo, alors tu as eu beaucoup de chance et tu as beaucoup de courage de poster cette histoire.
j'aimerais bien que tu me racontes ton histoire. pourrais-tu un jour l'enregistrer sur un support et me l'envoyer? si tu veux bien bien sūr....
2016-10-12