(This is a very early draft. I anticipate that changes will be made.)




Eighth Elegy

You were sitting beside me on a couch made for two.

You were describing the death of a relative, how she

had gotten a diagnosis of cancer, and needed treatment,

 

but the treatment didn't work, and it was painful besides,

and she died shortly after. I shook my head gently.

"No, that's not what happened. You had cancer, J-----.

 

And you died." And then you smiled, silent, as if

to say, "That's true." Next thing I know, I was wailing,

lamenting to some other friend, "I miss her! I miss J-----!

 

It's been less than three months, and I've forgotten

what her voice sounds like!" And then I woke up,

bewildered at one in the morning, eleven weeks exactly

 

since the rainy Saturday of your death. You've been 

"visiting" all your friends like this, in dreams,

for fleeting glimpses, brief hellos from the Great Beyond.

 

Newly awake, the knife of your death alive again in me, 

I sobbed for an hour and keened your blessed name

to angels and saints, to God, to the bedroom ceiling.

 

And I was grateful. Grateful for this pang of grief. Grateful

for this sharp clear anamnesis, this remembrance of you,

my cherished friend whose voice was solace and strength,

 

whose eyes were my refuge, whose smile was my rest.





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Written on 2018-10-20 at 13:52

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Coo & Co The PoetBay support member heart!
Members of Coo & Co very much enjoyed this piece, Thomas :>)

We like the free flow throughout the stanzas, and we are moved by the content. The interjections of speech within the narrative are very effective too. We applaud :>)
2018-10-22