For some of you that don't know I am a three time cancer survivor. But don't feel sorry for me because there were many things that changed me by having cancer.


Cancer As I See It.

The day that I found out that I had cancer was a defining moment.
Now let me tell you that diagnosis scared the hell out of me.
I was told that I had between two weeks and two months to live.
They were wrong, of course I am glad about that.
But when they say that cancer does not change you, that is not exactly right.
Cancer changed me for the better and I am glad of that.
Cancer showed me things about myself that I did not like, because I
had to see myself in the mirror exactly how I image the Lord looked at me.
Okay I will not give a long lecture to those that have struggled with cancer about faith.
Because you have to deal with many things and come to terms with your own solutions to a life threatening disease.
Along the way while undergoing treatment, I met so many people that I
would have never paid attention to had I not walked the same walk.
There was the three year old with more courage than any soldier in the field of battle.
There was the black female supervisor in a county next to me that taught me a lot about her faith.
Then there was the doctor in our group who was Hindu and he perhaps showed me the best way to meditate.
Each of them left their mark on me and many did not make it.
However they were no less important and from them I learned these things.
In order to live well you must know how to die well.
Cancer is life threathening but not life taking in many cases.
I do not consider myself a person who is dying from cancer,
but I am a person living with a thing called cancer. This quote came from a man named Houston Webley.
Cancer survivors are people living with cancer.
You learn that there is only today.
For when you go to sleep and wake up you are in that day.
Perhaps I will get into further detail about cancer, but one thing
I want people to know that cancer has a way of making you
truly realize what is important.
That each of you here have a purpose and that purpose is yours to fullfill.
Each of you are special in your own right and never let anyone tell you
otherwise.



Poetry by Judy T Lloyd
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Written on 2006-09-02 at 02:21

Tags Cancer  Spiritual  Hope 

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Alison Clarke
Dear Judy:

I really understand how you feel and I get this poem: for I'm a two-time cancer survivor; everything you said about how your priorities change, how you do not take one day for granted, how you realize that you have a purpose here on earth, and it's your duty to find out what it is and to carry it out. I totally get you. Everyone I have talked to who has survived cancer gets the philosophy that is underlined in this poem. From one cancer survivor to another, God bless you, continue on your mission/missions here on this earth, and keep taking life one day at a time. Cancer changes you for the better if you let it; and you totally understand that. I know that my focus, clarity, creativity, sensitivity, compassion, my doubtless purpose to give voice to injustice, ignorance, and insolence, to pursue and discover all of my other callings, is all due to the fact that I have faced death twice. Facing the grim reaper makes you realize how lucky you really are; and that you are a fool to not live your life differently. Judy, I commend you and keep doing what you're doing.


Alison
2006-09-16



From my perspective, I would say to you that hitherto shall ye go, but no further. His fixed purpose is not the destruction, but the instruction of His people. Wisdom hangs up the thermometer at the furnace mouth, and regulates the heat. The limit is encouragingly comprehensive. The God of providence has limited the time, manner, intensity, repetition and the effects of all our sickness; each throb is decreed, each sleepless hour is predestinated, each relapse ordained, each depression of spirit foreknown, and each sanctifying result eternally purposed. Nothing great or small escapes the ordinary hand of Him who number the hairs of our head. We may well be better served when we pray that our prayer ends like Jesus in Gethsemane Garden; "Father, take this cup from me, but not my will, let Thy will be done." You have courage and conviction, courage to face your predicament and conviction to write about it. God Bless,
2006-09-05


Kathy Lockhart
Oh Thank you for sharing! This is a beautiful testimony about your battle, you victory, and how you were truly changed for the better. This is inspiring! xxx kathy
2006-09-02


keith nunes
inspiring. i guess you've seen a new way of living your life - a wonderful positive from a trying time
2006-09-02


Michael G
wow.. this is very good.. i liked your thoughts and the conclusions you came to! Very nice indeed
2006-09-02