I wrote this just after the World Trade Fair desaster.


I can`t believe you`re gone
I can`t believe you died that day
I can`t remember how you felt
I can`t believe your wondrous eyes were
Martyred to an unknown cause
You; mixed with steel and dust for all the world to see
You; crushed; your spirit flung so unprepared
In shock at sudden unplanned exit

I can`t believe in love
I can`t believe in law
I can`t believe in wisdom
I can`t believe I saw you die
not once but in constant replay
Aboard that plane that ripped a million souls
A Christianís ticket to the roman games
Witness to the devouring of his anguished soul

I can believe in vengeance
I can believe in hate
I can believe in anger
I can believe in forces
That trample others rights
to defend their need to slake
Their thirst for power
At the cost of lives like yours

I must believe in caring
I must believe in love
I must believe in sharing
I must believe that pain
is the searing road to justice
if I can only find the path
To make some sense of all this emptiness I feel
To find the diamond that was you crushed to carbon once again

Can I live to see your empty grave
Can I live to change myself
Can I live to make this happen
Can I live to be alone again without
the loving that was you.
To find completeness in the shards of loving yesterdays
To become whole in some other unknown way

I must

For you

Poetry by josephus The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2006-12-30 at 16:11

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Doreen Cavazza
This went straight to my heart. I had a lump in my throat as I read. Loss is such a hard thing to live with. Thanks for sharing. This is a wonderful write.

D.D. Michaels
A very poignant and moving poem, Josephus. You write straight from the heart, while at the same time keeping an eye on careful craftsmanship. A really fine poem. Thank you for sharing.

Best Wishes,
D.D. Michaels

Christian Lanciai The PoetBay support member heart!
Very noteworthy. This is the best 11/9 poem I have read so far.

sorrow will take its time and find a path for you to follow ... not ever forgetting your hurt ... but once more giving you a smile to take to your heart ... that I belive ...

and reading of your loss which is not understandable for anyone else than those that had to experience this cruelty ... you have made a poem here that has a very strong impact on me ... and I wish that time will make you live in peace again ...

"To find the diamond that was you crushed to carbon once again"

this line is so painted with sorrow and love

I am so sorry for your loss
regards katherine

Fantastic poem, Yes you must, we all must try. Thanks for reminding me and all the world, what perpetuated this world misery we find ourselves enbedded in. Love is our only chance. This poem made me cry, which tells me it's a great poem.

Wishing you Peace in 2007