Dark words written in very dark times.


I Don't Know

My mind is full
of thoughts,
all I do is think,
about memorys, friends,
the girl i think i love,
confusion is taking
over me little by
little each day,

How long will
i last with
this confusion?
I don't know,
I don't think i
can take this
for much longer,
if only the feelings
about the girl i
think i love would
show it's true identity,

I hope i love her,
but at the same time
I don't,
because she is with
somebody else and
I don't have a chance
with her,


What am I thinking?
like anybody would
love me and be my
girlfriend,
I'm just day dreaming,
I should know that i
don't have a chance
with anyone,
after all the things
that has happened to me
through love,


I have no words
for this feeling,
I feel empty,
like i'm nobody,
just a shadow or
a stain on this planet,
a stain everyone
wants to wash away,

I don't belong here,
I'm just polluting
my friends, family and
everyone's life,
i bring misery,
sadness and pain
to everyone,

That's my abillity,
the worst kind of abillity,
nobody wants it so
it's been put on
my shoulders,
to drag me down and
keep me there,
but nothing shall
take me down,
survival will
be complete..



Poetry by Alexander
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Written on 2005-11-18 at 18:08

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Zoya Zaidi
remorse with a hint of self hate shines through this poem. well done Alex.
2005-11-19


penfold18
This is very intense my friend, self reproach on a large scale,spat out for the world to see, well written and projected:-)
2005-11-18