A, uhm, tribute to life and it's ever so confusing mixture of events that sends us spiralling through a mixture of emotions.


I Fooled Myself

So focused, so calm
On the outside.
- working harder than ever to seem happy,
but I'm falling apart inside.
Convincing others is easy enough,
but I don't always believe myself.
- chain reactions of emotion,
ticking on by.
How long can I push aside,
how long can I deflect?
My heart tells me I'm alone, lonely,
nowhere to turn.
My head disagrees.
I have so many friends.
- confused in mind,
and cannot let anyone see, let anyone know.
Shredding, shredding
to pieces.
Fragments.
Laughter, confusion, tears,
everyday – so perplexing.
I'm happy. I think.
- entertainment, substitution, distraction,
it's great.

Life came so suddenly,
down pouring rain.
so heavy, heavy!
shoulders won't lift, head
continuously bowed.

I look up. Grin.
Singing, dancing.
Embracing the rain,
it's loving caress.

wait!
wasn't I sad? did I not recently wallow in self-pity?
I guess I was wrong..

I'm so alive,
it hurts.

And yet, I love it.




Poetry by Cam
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Written on 2008-11-26 at 23:07

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jenks The PoetBay support member heart!
the thoughts here speak volumes to me.
aren't emotions wonderful?
usually :)
bookmarked because I like talent :)
2008-11-27