I am not able to feel the anger

the one that slowly kills the soul.
The anger that for each spoken word
weakens one’s spirit.

I am though able to feel the pain
of betrayal and it becomes my light
in the darkness. The driving force
behind my actions. We will do
everything in our power in order
to stop the pain.

I am not asking for redemption.

I would never surrender in order to
avoid pain.

I am finding a way to intellectually and
if needed physically eliminate the
source of my pain from my reality.

It has always been that way

If the source of my pain kills my soul
then it has won If it kills my body it
has lost. Because. My spirit is still free

Words of d –anger echoing in the darkness
Behind kind words a constant smirk comes forth
And I observe, it is what it is therefore

why bother?

I have a future to build