I'm forcing myself

Telling myself that I need to move on

You're not going to come back

No matter how many times I

Pray

Dream

Wish

You're gone.

But theres still that little part inside me

That still hasn't been destroyed.

It's pounding so hard, trying to get my attention

And most of the time

My attention it has reached.

You still give me signs of

Love

Caring

Protection

And that drags me away from my search

For stronger arms to hold me

And a warmer smile to comfort me

All the while

I think about how strong you really were

And how your smile made all my worrys disappear

And then I wonder

Why am I letting go?