Hold me, just hold me

let my tears run free

So OK, so fine, doing so well, the outside world not a clue of what I've seen

Don't despair as I sob, just be strong and hold me as I crumble

let me show you why I fail

Despair, anger, betrayal, hatred, growing up in a broken family, watching my mother struggle to hold together the few pieces left of the three of us 

Watch as my darkest tears emerge, and the unravelling strings of my pain slash at my heart

The forgotten memories, being asked for forgiveness when too young to know the meaning, the emotional hurricane of not knowing where the boundaries are

You thought me strong, very strong, too strong to be hurt. You saw not beyond my layers

The drive to stay alive, for no reason, the pleasure in the little things around me, it brought me where I am, brought me to you.

I crumbled into a dark, hard cold, when you left me behind

I know now what forgiveness means, I know now what love means

Pain is nothing, hate is never worth it, and you bring me to life