Harsh Reality

How could you do this to me
You knew how I felt
Yet you went ahead
And hurt me

I keep imagining what happened
His lips on yours
You reacting back

How I have longed for that kiss
And you took it from me
You took it from me when you were
Too drunk to even appreciate what was happening

I keep imagining what happened
His lips on yours
You reacting back
You reach around and caress the hair on the back of his
Neck
He grips your small waist to keep himself somewhat grounded in his
Intoxicated state

How I have longed to taste him
How I have longed to have him tell me I am worthy of him
How I have longed to have him notice me not just a part of a crowd

And everyday he continues to pass me by
I feel my heart break yet again
He will sit beside me and I will attempt to place my hand close to his
Yet he doesn't even notice
He always leaves
He will never look at me and see me
He will never be interested

Yet I cant live with that fact
I try and tell myself that he isn't worth it
That I can give him up
Yet every time I see him
I feel my heart come to life

I finally find someone I can give myself to
Someone who I cannot be afraid of
Someone who I want to love
And you took him from me

I know the kiss meant nothing
And he probably doesn't remember
But the fact that you enacted my fantasy
The fact that he will always choose you over me
Makes me want to leave and never return

The worst of all is I cant tell you these things
I cant show you how much your actions hurt me
I cant tell you that even though you weren't aware of what you were doing
You betrayed me
I just have to laugh it off
And learn to forget him
Force myself to forget him

You took away my hope
You took away my happiness
You took away someone who I could possibly love
You took him away
And you don't even realize how much you have hurt me
You don't even recognize the fact that I am sick with envy
You destroyed my image of him

I keep imagining what happened
Him kissing you
And not me




Poetry by decathitator
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Written on 2010-11-22 at 03:26

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Nick Matherne
I never knew you had felt this way about it
I knew you didn't like it
but I didn't know how much

things will be:

Overwhelming for a time, but
Knowing life,
All will be well for
You never know what the future holds

Poigniant--very emotional. thank you for sharing
2010-11-22


Morgan Cellohead
booooooooooo... good write, boo situation =(. alcohol sucks... and so does unrequited love.
2010-11-22