Forbidden Tears

As my body shakes and breaks
and hurts and twists and moans in
migraines, tendinitis, backaches, nausea, sleeplessness

Not a single tear do i shed

As this situation grows more an more complex
and I want to run so far away from it
because any decision I make cannot be black and white
cannot draw lines

Because of what is right
what I love
and what I hate

Not a single tear is shed

As I am drawn between extreme emotions
laughing and truly feeling it down through my bones because of
his beautiful sweetness
and falling deep into my darkest self and just staring at the world as though if I blinked, it would be gone
and I could breathe again

Still not a tear

But when I sit alone in my room with those beautiful and tragic Words
When my mother's voice breaks while she tells me she'll be here for me no matter what
When I cold and distant describe my situation to my dear friend and see how it hits her heart

Then does my heart stirr
and the ocean inside me swells in this cold, soothing, pain

But no one is here to catch my tears

So I am left once again, tearless and cold
breaking to pieces




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Written on 2011-04-03 at 01:24

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