Dramatic poem written at a dark hour of night, exploring dramatic and darker parts of myself and my thoughts.


Self-Destruct

Without hope
I fall into myself
hating myself and cannot hold myself up

I can see her
dark poisonous her
she wants to destroy

I do not want to destroy
I do not want to open myself to love again
to him

I rush towards his blade
he does not ask for my love
only my body
I throw myself before his feet
he does not wish to pick me up
but claims me there in the dust

when will he throw me aside?
I do not know
I dare not care

I cut myself cold on his demanding eyes
so I will not cut them
I numb myself upon his conquering touch
so I will allow no other man to lay a hand on me

I wrap my heart in those Words
so it will not be hurt by my actions
I hide my mind in the beauty of the world
so it will not stop singing because I scream

But he will not let me
near him
unless
I

stop bleeding
stop cutting
myself upon him

He will not take my hands
nor kiss my lips

unless I truly want him
and not to die upon his bed



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Written on 2011-09-25 at 02:13

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