An email i wrote....when i finally gave up on her. and she asked me what was wrong..if ur looking for rhyme....it isnt ther...
I wonder if theres anything in this world that absolutely petrifies you.
Scares you so much that you have nightmares.
I could never find the opportunity to ask you that.
However theres this one thing that absolutely haunts me,
and im not afraid to admit it
My greatest fear in life is,
that one night when im 40,
i would dream about this surreal face,
something that i'd always wanted to touch.
and that when i wake up the next morning,
the face lying next to me is not the face that i dreamt of last night.
Kind of gave me the chills
.....still does....
and then to go through the torturous ordeal
of thinking about what i did or didnt do or should have done.
And somehow i thought that if i tried hard enough,
then atleast i wouldnt have to have any regrets.
But thats not how life goes.....atleast not for me.
I always wished i didnt have to tell you this.
well...im not confused and im not going through a bad phase.....
ur making me sound like a freak here....and i dont need therapy.
If u give it just a little thought then maybe you'd understand.....
but dont stress yourself...its ok...
Just a passing thought....
maybe im looking for a reason to stay....
i wonder if you've given me one for the last 4 years.
thers only so long that u can do something without reason.....
thers the part where the dream thing comes in.....
ive never given myself a chance to have regrets about life....
maybe thats exactly the reason why i hang on for 4 years,
so that im convinced that ive done everything i possibly could.
Thers been enough opportunity for things to change....
but now im convinced that they arent going to....
maybe i need somebody whos a little more real....
and not just a phone number or email id....
that i call or write mails to.
and i said sorry cos i knew u wouldnt understand.....
so in earnest reply honey....nothings wrong....
things are just the way they've always been.
Words by Umang
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Written on 2006-04-02 at 20:06
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There are a few things that had to be said.....I hoped it wouldnt be like this.I wonder if theres anything in this world that absolutely petrifies you.
Scares you so much that you have nightmares.
I could never find the opportunity to ask you that.
However theres this one thing that absolutely haunts me,
and im not afraid to admit it
My greatest fear in life is,
that one night when im 40,
i would dream about this surreal face,
something that i'd always wanted to touch.
and that when i wake up the next morning,
the face lying next to me is not the face that i dreamt of last night.
Kind of gave me the chills
.....still does....
and then to go through the torturous ordeal
of thinking about what i did or didnt do or should have done.
And somehow i thought that if i tried hard enough,
then atleast i wouldnt have to have any regrets.
But thats not how life goes.....atleast not for me.
I always wished i didnt have to tell you this.
well...im not confused and im not going through a bad phase.....
ur making me sound like a freak here....and i dont need therapy.
If u give it just a little thought then maybe you'd understand.....
but dont stress yourself...its ok...
Just a passing thought....
maybe im looking for a reason to stay....
i wonder if you've given me one for the last 4 years.
thers only so long that u can do something without reason.....
thers the part where the dream thing comes in.....
ive never given myself a chance to have regrets about life....
maybe thats exactly the reason why i hang on for 4 years,
so that im convinced that ive done everything i possibly could.
Thers been enough opportunity for things to change....
but now im convinced that they arent going to....
maybe i need somebody whos a little more real....
and not just a phone number or email id....
that i call or write mails to.
and i said sorry cos i knew u wouldnt understand.....
so in earnest reply honey....nothings wrong....
things are just the way they've always been.
Words by Umang
Read 786 times
Written on 2006-04-02 at 20:06
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