Sacred love
How do I tell you,the turmoil in my mind,
the sheer confusion blinding me,
the manipulation I have been through.
How can someone alienate you and embrace you in the next instant.
Feelings are to be played with,
hypocrisy tainting the blood,
not knowing which is truth and fake anymore.
Yet, through all this,
beyond all this,
I love you.
How do I explain to you,
that I have started doubting my own sanity,
wondering whether I imagined I loved you,
and you loved me, I think.
Yet those I had loved since I breathed,
discarded me without a second thought.
Maybe I am the trash they imagine me to be.
Maybe I deserve nothing good out of this world,
and you are definitely the best thing that ever happened to me.
I do not want to ruin your life,
like I did to those I had loved for all these years,
and gave nothing else but tears.
I just want to be on my own now,
no happiness at my doorstep.
I cannot see you suffering for me,
because of me.
Those unshed tears in your eyes tear me apart.
You are living within me, part of me that I cannot forsake.
I will never be able to endure these words from you.
I have loved you too much.
If those same words that were uttered so harshly came out of your mouth one day,
I would never be able to live to accept them.
I can never move away from you,
you are forever merged with my soul.
I just fear the day you will hate me as well,
words turning sour,
love turning black,
and my soul along with it.
I have been scarred beyond repair now,
my heart refusing to believe anyone anymore,
my feelings for you too sacred to taint,
and I, too weak now to endure tears in your eyes.
Poetry by myst_ery
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Written on 2013-06-28 at 17:51
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