what a shock to see the world fall apart beneath you
all that promise that lit your eyes at preschool
the victim of a system that couldn’t feed you
too busy feeding itself

what a shock to discover that “sexy” was a personality
to see it defy your reality
to learn that character
doesn’t matter
in a world tripping over itself to stay in front of you

you don’t deserve this
no one does
but no one can see what they deserve
in a world reserved for the strong
the "beautiful"
the greedy and indisputable
leaders of chaos

what a shock to know
that in order to grow
you would have to keep yourself away
from all the lies
they teach you…
they can’t see you
they can’t see your sunlit eyes
hidden behind all the times you tried
to make sense of this
fighting while you leave behind
your own
internal bliss

goodbye