F.i.in.e Moods

- anything I watch, I put the subtitles on... sometimes they can get creative, I find...

The English subtitles on my screen:

"(sombre, melody-less music)"

Melody-less?

Unmelodic music, no?

- being halted in a project you started 'cause time won't free up for some weeks yet...

When held back like this

It makes me feel restless

All I think about is it

It consumes all space

I anticipate getting to it

But it's impossible now

'Cause time is MIA

To my sorest chagrin

Waiting kills me

I just want to get on!

A few weeks to go

It's coming!

Very silently to myself

There's that desire which

Always comes back to surface

And take up all of the space.

A dream of oblivion

And not having to feel

Like it'd be the best

Place to handle now.

And despite all rationalizing

And full awareness of it,

It seems that desire never

Wants to leave or let go.

It takes hold of me, and

Even after all of this time,

A battle has to ensue to

Keep me from following it.

I don't always win.

So, let me get this right,

You want to start a group

For people who are introverts?

Ok, but how do you propose

That's going to work exactly?

Not to rain on your idea here,

But surely you see the problem?

Introverts aren't "group people",

Why on earth would they want one?

Just wondering.

It isn't because of you

Swapped got the hues

And tossed around

That we make no sound

It isn't because of me

That such feelings are free

And bid your heart

For you to make a start

And it isn't because of us

Trampled got the trust

And buried way under

So, it's really no wonder

There are no more words

And no more desire to find them

Is basically what's going on now

Mainly because all there is is boring

There's really nothing to say

And I seriously doubt it's interesting

My spirit of creativity feels dead

While my adaptation period attempts

To cope with the reality of people

It's disappointingly unpleasant

And it's exhausting me to no end

Also, it's difficult to be inspired by it