F.i.in.e Moods

- really looking forward to getting through 1st of July...

For some reason, the 1st of July

Is provincial-wide moving day!

Why?  Because all of our rental leases

Are from the 1st July to 30th June.

I suspect it was a Separatists' move in the 70's

To make Canada Day too busy to celebrate.

Pardon my cynicism, but moving day

Is absolute mayhem because everyone's moving!!

Good luck not running into any snags

Getting your rental moving truck!

Or getting out in time for the next tenants!

It's really ridiculous that we're set up this way!

And, sigh, I'm moving on 1st July, so got to

Admit my levels of stress are starting to rise.

Will be so relieved when it's done and over with. Oh, 1st

of July, yeah, Happy Canada Day, too, while you're at it, sure.

There is a certain sense of loss(?),

But at the same time amazement,

To one day find yourself not

Feeling all of that pain that had been

So entrenched from the beginning,

And that had slowly chipped away at

Your sanity and overall well-being

Year after year without any breaks...

Not to mention the annihilation of

All hope anything else could ever

Come your way in any conceivable

Fashion because that is all you had

Ever known life was like.

Not that one would ever miss it at all,

But it is nonetheless in some measure

Very déboussolant just the same,  

To one day find yourself without it,

It feels like having entered a new

Dimension or perhaps a new planet,

And it sure takes some getting used to...

It is obviously not unpleasant at all,

It is just unusual and makes you feel

A little unsure about all of the happiness.

The landscape is unrecognizable, unknown,

And although you are awed, pleased by it,

There is a big part of you that is now gone.

And that feels a little unsettling somehow;

A most difficult thing to try to explain, really.

L'affaire est qu'il y a trop de petites nuances avec toi,

et en plus, elles n'ont pas de rythme ou de constance.

Alors, comment veux-tu qu'on te suive avec tout ça ?

Ce n'est pas que je n'ai pas essayé, tu le sais bien,

Mais là, je crois que c'est le temps qu'on s'arrête ici.

T'en es misérable, j'en suis aussi, alors vaut mieux.

- pas dans le but de pessimisme, juste une observation... 

Où il y a des humains,

c'est inévitable qu'il faut

composer avec les problèmes,

car veut, veut pas, ils font

toujours partie de l'équation.

Personne n'est à l'abri

de cette réalité incontournable,

car où il y a des humains,

c'est complétement inmanquable,

il va y avoir des problèmes.

For you, who might be wondering,

Things are going very well for me.

However, it's been incredibly busy.

I absolutely love the job,

And I'm getting better at this social

Anxiety stuff I have to deal with.

Can't say that I'm living

Any of it as a hardship,

It's actually quite satisfying.

I'm all-around very happy,

And a lot of good things

Are happening for me, it's nice.

A lot of big changes in my life,

Plans are finally moving forward

For me and my douce moitié.

The first one is to move out

To a new apartment, which

We will be doing very soon.

It's on the same street,

Not what we'd planned, but it's

Fully renovated with a balcony!

After that, settle in, and

Finally be able to get back

To our dearest projects.

Things are looking very good.

Really hope all's been well

For you, I do miss you a lot.