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NOTE: 2022 06 28 04H41 EST Interviews -
Interviews
Written 2022-06-28
- upcoming important job interview after passing a first interview and then a written test with the same potential employer...
Breathe, ma chère !
Just breathe!
Relax, be yourself!
That's all you can do!





scooting down to the Promenade Samuel-De Champlain (on the Boulevard Champlain by the Fleuve St-Laurent) today...
Summer is Here Obviously
Written 2022-06-25
That's where everyone's gone to
Out and about enjoying the weather
I can say I perfectly relate to that
I'm off to do the same too, tourlou




Current Mood: reflections...
Current Music: "Ohne Dich" - Rammstein
NOTE: 2022 06 23 01H08 EST Paternalistic or Not, It's Nice -
Paternalistic or Not, It's Nice
Written 2022-06-23
- with love, for J. ...
You thought it might be paternalistic,
And ever since you said that,
It's been on my mind how I'd view it
Seeing as I've never really had
Anyone as a father role in my life,
So, I really can't say I'm able to
Assess the possibility it's paternalistic.
In saying that, though, I did search
In myself to see how that angle feels,
And I came to think it's nice actually,
Especially in the context of why
It was said in the first place.
You've been by my side through
So very much over the years,
It's nice to be able to share this
Part with you, and you being happy.
It's always bothered me that I'm so
Struggling with everything of life,
And to be at this point, with you there,
Is really more than I've ever expected,
So your pride in me makes a difference.
Paternalistic it might have been, but
To me, it's a show of love I can't be
Upset about in no way at all is the truth.
Thank you for being who you are,
And for sticking by me all these years.
It's the most anyone cared to do for me, so,
No, I see nothing wrong with what you said.
It's really sweet and caring,
It makes me feel like I matter.




Current Mood: alright...
Current Music: "Deliberation" - Katatonia
NOTE: 2022 06 21 17H22 EST Explain Yourself, Please -
Explain Yourself, Please
Written 2022-06-21
That there's love,
There's no doubt,
But, m'dear, you're
Driving me crazy.
One minute warm,
The other cold,
There's no telling
What that's about.
Get around to feeling
You're throwing hints,
But, m'dear, terrible at
Guessing describes me.
And more importantly,
The reasons why you'd
Want to make me guess,
It's not a clear part either.
A lot of uncertainty
In figuring it all out,
And so, m'dear, I stand
By waiting for you.
There are so many
Contradictions one
Can work out without
Your direct input.




Current Mood: eesh...
Current Music: "Tsekkaa Ittes" - Cheek (feat. Skandaali)
NOTE: 2022 06 19 15H11 EST Obviously Not Saying My Tastes Are Better or Anything -
Obviously Not Saying My Tastes Are Better or Anything
Written 2022-06-19
Eesh... Cheek (feat. Skandaali) just
came on my 'playlist', well, it's
not really a playlist, it's actually
my complete database of all song files
I finally was able to finalize last night!
Thousands of songs collected over years.
My laptop died last year in January,
And all I had for a long while that
Year was a tablet, way too small to hold
My database of music, so I went
with very little music available to
me for what felt like an eternity.
But I have it all back now, and finding
a lot of songs I didn't know I even had.
Anyway, that Cheek song I was
on about before, it's some Finnish
rap and I really can't say that it
sounds any better in their language.
It's terrible, the appeal is completely
Lost on me, I'm afraid. It's not what
I'd call very listenable... so, yeah.
Eesh... as soon as it started, everything
In me was going "no, you don't
want to listen to that" in a most
instant fashion. It's funny that,
how music's felt differently by each.
Obviously, a friend out there enjoys
this kind of music since they sent it,
while I, on receiving it, didn't like it,
And I mean, not at all. It's terrible.





Current Mood: alright... another little ditty about my new acquisition...
Current Music: "State of Love and Trust" - Pearl Jam
NOTE: 2022 06 19 14H31 EST "Perfect Solution!" Confirmation - 
"Perfect Solution!" Confirmation
Written 2022-06-19
- goes up to 30 Km/h... !
I had high hopes, also kept them realistic,
But it finally turns out, I was right!
This e-Scooter is perfect, it's absolutely fantastic!
Less pain, more freedom, added sincere delights!




Current Mood: alright...
Current Music: "The End of Heartache" - Killswitch Engage
NOTE: 2022 06 19 13H53 EST A Bit of a Conundrum -
A Bit of a Conundrum
Written 2022-06-19
- for those who don't know, my douce moitié is from England and he fell in love with a girl who lives in the heart of French Canada ... I find it really sweet when he tries to speak French with me...
My douce moitié does not speak French,
He can understand without trouble reading it,
And he's definitely better at understanding
What people are saying when they speak,
But holding a conversation is not there yet.
I recognize that I probably didn't help much
Over the years with that, 'cause what I did
And do remove his opportunities for practice.
What I mean by that is that people here
Are majoritarily unilingual French,
So I find myself simultaneously translating
The conversations for two unilingual people
Trying to communicate to one another, and
My kids did and do the exact same thing too.
When two people want to talk together, but
Can't, it just feels wrong to not intervene.
It would kind of ruin the moment, too,
Being able to help, but not help when the
Context of the moment manifestly requires it.
But at the same time, I can see the problem
As far as him being able to practice his French.




Current Mood: alright...
Current Music: (none)
NOTE: 2022 06 18 11H55 EST Married Name? -
Married Name?
Written 2022-06-18
- since 1997...
Women in Québec aren't allowed
By law to use their married name
In any official documents, only
Their family name at birth...
I understand why they decided
To abolish that practice, makes
Sense and keeps records neater,
But it's a bit sad just the same.
Would have liked to be able to use my
Husband's name instead of my own,
Considering mine doesn't hold
Much in terms of love and affection.
Obviously, it isn't a big deal,
But it is a little disappointing.
We are Mr. & Mrs. C.,
But officially, we can't be,
Even though we're married.
Is it the same where you live?




Current Mood: reminiscing on my travels in 2017...
Current Music: (none)
NOTE: 2022 06 18 09H06 EST On Setting Foot in England for the First Time -
On Setting Foot in England for the First Time
Written 2022-06-18
- I loved my time in England, don't get me wrong... just this side was really unexpected...
Apologies to my English friends,
It's not to criticize your home,
But as a foreigner stepping foot
For the first time in your region,
I couldn't help myself feeling
Taken aback at how much litter
There is pretty much everywhere.
On the coach from Heathrow,
Looking out the window, first
Thing I noticed all along the sides
Of the motorway, piles of litter! (but I mean piles!)
Bottles, cans, wrappers, bags,
All kinds of garbage, so much
Of it, it was arrestingly shocking.
I've never seen anything like it.
And being in towns turned out just
As noticeably littered everywhere.
I don't understand why it's in
Such a state, to be honest.
Where I live, there is litter,
But it's an occasional affair,
Not the norm of every space!
Sorry, but it was truly shocking.
When I go to different countries,
My time isn't spent on finding
Differences between my home
And the new region I'm in, but
This, it just hits you in the face,
It's just absolutely everywhere.




Current Mood: alright...
Current Music: "Graceful Dancing" - Blue October
NOTE: 2022 06 17 17H30 EST Bittersweet Conclusion -
Bittersweet Conclusion
Written 2022-06-17
Once upon a time,
Some years ago,
I used to make
You cry from
Sadness, and
Now, I believe
I'm making you
Cry from boredom
With what I write.
My sincerest
Apologies to you
For then sadness,
For now boredom.
The good side
To this, though,
Is that the pain
Which hounded
Me for so long
Is no longer
Around, but on
The flip side,
I evidently
Can't write
Anymore.




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