danielle289

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This is nothing more than an actual diary entry, i am kind of using this as a blog for my readers form face book to read.

Whats love got to do with it?

Written 2009-08-03

'Pluto, Planet of the unexpected, adds a touch of adventure to travel plans - of just the kind you enjoy. Your love life will turn into a success story now that your mind and heart give you the same message. If single your new love has a fascinating name. Three friends Share winning luck.'

IN a way my stars really relate to me today, but i did something that was unexpected in myself though, like asking M if he wanted to go to the driving range and pub after work...it's not like me really to want to do that but the past few weeks have not gone so well really. Arguing about this, that and the other; basically on the verge of ending. But i don't want it to end, i really like him and i want it to work. He loves golf so i thought it would be nice. I also bought some red wine for when we get in! I do hope this will turn to a success story! Talking of friends though, i was today in contact with an old dear friend that i have not spoken to or seen for nearly a year now and we are planning to meet in two Fridays for a catch up, I'm looking forward to this as i will be out without M and having a break from the every day stresses that life entails. Also i had a missed call from another dear old friend that i have yet to call back. So that should be interesting!


THOUGHT of this week though is somewhat on the serious side. After yet another argument with M i decided to resolve things with us taking it in turns to say the things that annoy us about one another, I started rolling things out of my mouth and it clearly hurt his feelings, i did feel bad got that 'i win' kick out of it. So he said to name the good things, the things we like. I felt like saying 'you don't love me' as a good thing, but then it dawned on me. Him not loving me is a good thing when we argue because it gives me a sense of security that if we broke up it wouldn't be as bad. But it was a bad thing that he didn't love me when we where getting on, and no matter how much he can make me laugh and smile i have to get through the day knowing he doesn't. So is it a good thing or a bad? Most importantly of all...Do i love him?

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