One windy stormy night,
I am awoken by the sensation
of being watched. ...

Amongst the silence I hear
haunting echoes

through the pitch darkness I see...
The gray figures of my ex-lovers
appear at the window

each love and a drop of blood
each drop one story
each ghost one lover


like a chorus they chant
I can hear them....

-Why not me

- It should have been me

- Why didn't you choose me

- I loved you

- I wanted to give you a child

- I could have given you money and power

- I was your slave

- I wanted to be your master

I quickly hide underneath
my blankets
But I feel the blankets
being removed from me...
very slowly so that I have
to grasp them to pull them up
and hold on to them
till they stop moving.

The echoes have turned
to voices now.... I can hear them...
loud and clear...yelling...

- why not me I was handsome!
- Why not me I was charming
- why not me I was intelligent
- why not me I was kind
- why not me I was everything
you ever wished for I was
handsome
and charming
and intelligent!!!

I stand up dressed
in my red satin nightgown
and with a soothing voice tell them...

- I loved you guys
but you saw the flower
of our love as a pretty flower
that you wanted to cut and keep it
in a crystal vase forever...

If you had waited till
the blooming season
you would have seen
what I' ve seen

a diamond in the center of the flower
and if you had gazed into the diamond
you would have seen a river running through
the forest and a house
with a white picket fence...

Our future would have been foretold
in the diamond sphere...
There are three diamonds
that together can produce the harmonic melody
of the spheres;
one of them is in the flower of love
the other two exist in our hearts.

Together we discovered
the secrets of the sacred love
and learned how to control
the power of love

when we made love
we became one,
I took that moment
in my heart together
with the moments
that we laughed and cried.

Each breath I took,
each heartbeat
was a reminder of our love

that we were one,
the moments that
we were apart
I never felt alone because
you were a part of me
This is how
I got the second
diamond in my heart.


You said that you felt alone
and could not live with out me,
you wanted to move in with me
or get married. ...

You felt like we were
like two separate entities...
That's why you didn't receive
the third diamond in your heart...

You already lived in my heart...
No distance between us
could make me feel the void
and the loneliness you felt
because you were already
a part of my heart and soul...

The moment you decided
to use the power of love
to satisfy your ego
and boost your self-esteem...

The moments you used
your personal demon co-dependence
against me, you tried to enslave
me with the power of love,
to tame my will

gave me the drug of Submissiveness
so I will cave in to your insecurity

True love knows no fear
True love believes
True love understands
True love allows you to be free

the power of love can take
our souls to dark places
or towards the light...

Love shall set you free
from the chains of your ego;
abusing or using the power
should never be a question
when you go towards the light.

Because you understand
how useless the power is
and understand that it is just
a means to the journey of life...
Love can help you make
miracles if you use it right...

Do you understand now?
The ghosts form a circle
around me and
I can clearly see them...

- I wish you Good luck my love,
I say as I kiss each one of them
and they slowly fade away
smiling at me and leaving
butterflies behind ...

There is hope I say to myself
and look outside my window,
the moon is shining and
everything is still and peaceful.

I close my eyes
and fall asleep
for one more day...
until the day
I find my one
and only love...

- The third diamond...