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Her Secret Pocket

She carried her losses inside her
secret pocket. Hidden under layers
of old scar tissue, lay her treasure
of waste products of lost love affairs.
Sometimes numb, sometimes raw and red,
the pouch yields a blend of bile, acid, and
trace pieces of her heart. Putrid is the stench
of it. And, she tries to cover the odor with
an aroma of artificial smiles and memories
of what never was. 

Until today.

Today the pocket burst at its seams.
A swollen river of polluted tears tore through
the lining and covered her face in the filth
of rejection. Her eyes were pooled with images
of his unfaithfulness that ran with black streaks
of lies and deceit. The external look of sorrow
was nothing compared to the internal agony--
the murder of her fragile spirit. Gasping,
grasping for a lifeline, she struggled to stay
afloat in the torrent.

And there she is.

Now she holds on for there is nothing else
she can do. She has not the strength to swim
but she refuses to drown. So, she simply lingers
waiting for something, someone to rescue her.
Alone, in the flood of her own tears, she survives.
While she waits, she sews. Using the last thread
of her heart string, she fashions a secret pocket
in its lining. Each prick is a sign of life for it brings
her pain, a pain of her own making while she
once again builds a dam of the emotional scars
of the damned.

Until tomorrow...

Kathy Lockhart
1/08/07



 

 





Poetry by Kathy Lockhart
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Written on 2007-01-09 at 00:03

Tags Loss  Love  Pain 

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Colin Skilton
Hi Kath
having trouble getting on this site at the moment, don't know whats gone wrong.
Your poem reflects moments from my own life when i have been betrayed by a girlfriend, abandonned left in the cold and tears have flown. and for those who are a hard in heart, men do cry and we can be hurt too. So my sympathy goes out to all those real live people who cry and feel anger when they are betrayed, they are two of the most honest emotions in the world, the most honest being love.
Excellent work Kathy, i hope this comes over and if you missed my message, a very happy new year! :)
Colinxxxx
2008-01-14


Sandy Hiss
Excellent poem here Kathy. I couldn't stop reading until I got to the end of it. I also love the title.
2007-01-09


Arti
Amen to your sister's comment, Kathy.

Do I see traces of your heart? If so, here's a spool of heal-all thread...
2007-01-09


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Katherine
this is a heart rending piece so powerful do not despair someone will rescue you belive me rgds mike
2007-01-09


weirdzarun
That was beautiful. What a haunting piece! My mind will be fishing around this one all day! Simply magnificient images and wave after ave of jaw dropping visions!

B00KM@ARK3D
2007-01-09


Phyllis J. Rhodes
Until tomorrow, because, Scarlet O'Hara, afterall, tomorrow is another day, and that strong, determined, smart, woman who can write superior poetry, go to college in her 40s, raise three children with no help, be a surrogate mom to all their friends and any hurt animal or ailing plant, be a great teacher to tots with lots of problems, and tend to ailing parents can cut it. Pain is no stranger to her and she wears it honestly, but this woman's roar of pain will soon turn into a roar of victory and she will go about slaying more dragons. Can I get an amen??
2007-01-09


Teala
This look at human emotion really gave me chills. It reminds me of what my mom told me when I was a kid--when something bad happens to you, or you are having bad thoughts or feelings, put it all into a bottle and throw it out to see. As we see through this poem..sometimes that bottle makes it's way back to shore. BRAVO! BRAVO! EXCELLENT piece.
2007-01-09



This is absolutely amazing. It is beautiful and painfully written. Very emotional with wonderful imagery behind it.

*Bookmark*

<3
Kiva
2007-01-09


wee2souls
wow!!! my mommakac this is amazing very strong and raw it that makes sense at all..powerful read here! in awe with this one ..
love you
cindymac
2007-01-09

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