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Letter to God

What are you trying to do to me?
Are you trying to kill me?
Are you trying to make me scream?
What sick, strange pleasure do you attain from this torture?
Does my withered soul please you, make you happy?
I am not strong enough...
I can't do this.
Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve this.
I don't know how much longer I can hold on.
Each shuddering breath threatens to be my last
And if it is, so what?
What does it matter?
One less sad, sorry soul for this world,
Another left to rot in hell.
Is that what you want from me?
You push me to my limits each day,
And after every obstacle I conquer,
You shove another in my face.

Deal with it.
I love you.
I only want to make you stronger,
So that one day we can be together.

What sort of love is this, dear father?
Love me,
Take away some of the pain you so willingly gave me,
So that I can rest easy for one night.
Just once, I'd like to rise,
And smile at the beauty of this planet,
But how can I
When my mind is so tortured?
How can I
When nothing seems worth it?
Is this the life I'm meant to live?
Is this the way it's going to work?
How much longer?
How much longer?

I love you, my child.
I will never forsake you.
Not much longer.
In the end, you'll be stronger.

Oh God, please take it away,
I can't stand this pain for one more day.
I hate this,
I hate it.
I just want the end to come.
Quiet my screams,
So we can be together as one.



Poetry by Amanda Manmohan
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Written on 2006-05-08 at 03:22

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Love Knight
lots of tension then love came in .
I love this, I really do.
2006-06-19



The mysteries of God are most of the time difficult to understand, thus our Prayer should be; "Lord, help me to understand the mysteries of your mercies." Even in our sleep, pain which cannot forget fall drop by drop upon the heart, until in our despair, agaisnt our will, comes wisdom through the awful grace of God. Your poem is very deep and soul searching!
2006-05-09


Hamzah Khan
beautiful writing.
like you had a conversation with God himself.
lovely.
2006-05-08


Kel
hey manda...yet another really great poem :) and i think it captures the way we see God as a 'young adult' .. lol nah but seriously there are moments where i can most definitely relate to you in this one ... keep writing :D
2006-05-08


Zoya Zaidi
A powerful passionate write Amenda,
I can feel your anguish,you suffering,
The way you appeal to Him shows
your desperation, your pain, the
Difficult to endure pian, so heartlessly
Tearing your heart away, A thing very
RARE IN A ONE SO YOUNG!

There is a couplet by a famous Urdu poet, and I quote here:
" this is the beginning of Love,
What are you crying for,
Wait and see, what is
Ahead in store for thee"

Life is just beginning, it will throw even greater trails you way...and you shall overcome them...GOD DOES LOVE YOU AND WILL GIVE YOU THE STRENGHT TO OVERCOME...YOU SHALL OVER SOME ONE DAY...yes, I do believe!

((((hugs for that passionate soul of yours))))))

Love, from another passionate soul!
xxx, Zoya
2006-05-08