What's On My Mind

Many social sites ask "What's On Your Mind?"
So I figured I would answer that simple but complex question.

You see...whenever I am thinking
I am thinking about my loved ones
My health, finances, and what will make me happy.

Today I am still trying to figure things out
I am not happy or rich and my health isn't that great
But my loved ones mean the world to me...always have and always will.

One minute I'm happy and the next I'm not
I haven't been diagnosed with depression but feel it's in me
A lot of what I've done has been based on what I believe will make me happy.

It does for the most part
But only for a certain amount of time
I am still trying to find out how to make myself happy MOST OF THE TIME.

Since the death of my father
I have made some very big decisions
Ones that have not been me.

I have been a fake
Lying to people I love
But most importantly lying to myself.

I am ready to make things right
No matter how long it takes to do it
I want everyone to see the real me and love me.

What they see now is a mixture of real and fake
The parts I know they would love I let them see
But there's the me I hide because I've been ashamed of who I am.

It's time they love the real me
Or none of me
I'm just ready to finally let everyone see ALL OF ME!



Poetry by Shannon Ann Britto
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Written on 2017-05-25 at 16:49

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