June 30, 2019.
last day of pride month, hope you're all living your truth.
she is now a he (happy pride month)
swinging open the closet door, hearing it's whimper
as if I'm pulling off a bandage from a wound
old prom dresses, a graduation gown, and my mother's denim jacket
I inhale the dust and old perfume
In black garbage bags, a life I used to lead finds shelter
And then they are given a second chance with someone who will
smile comfortably in the mirror and adjust them with pride
I shed my cocoon and offer my wings, I will no longer hide
And I think to myself, what I would say to the people who wore them next
I think of my father who felt a sudden pain in his chest
when he saw I would never be seen in another dress
he didn't understand then but he was trying his best
"Oh, I knew the girl who wore these
She shrived from existence and that may sound dreadful
if it weren't for the fact she never felt alive to begin with
But I heard from her ashes rose contentment"
And it took a while to get there,
from nights crying about why I was like this
to being pushed down stairs and being teased for what I did to my hair
to self harm scars and losing the friends I still miss
And now, I watch my own existence being threatened
A military ban, a bathroom bill, trans students protections revoked
I was set to go to college in North Carolina but they had just legalized
pepper spraying me if I was in the restroom and I was scared to go
I would not change the decision to come out for anything
That closet I walked out of has left room for so many possibilities
So, yes, I knew the girl who wore these
but she now goes by he
and he is finally free
Poetry by aidan haskel
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Written on 2019-06-30 at 08:53
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