When Daddy had an affair.

When she often came around,
Often I wondered why daddy smiled so.
Sometimes a dark cloud in mummy's eyes flickered;
But I sang and played;Perhaps still too young
The crack in my family's fine porcelain
To even notice or see.

At the end of the rains the flowers blossomed,
So did she,my eyes grew round:
I wondered why so suddenly she had to leave.
To the coast she went, so they said.
But daddy would go away for weekends too.
Buisness he said-Money he had to make.
Right in his arms I'd jump on his return.
Mommy just looked and a stray tear I saw.
How lovely,dear me,I thought.
For love to blossom till one cries.....
I was young I guess-
Innocent to the ways of the world.

When I grew up I came to understand,
Daddy had an affair and all my life had been a lie.
The dark cloud in mommy's eyes sudddenly made sense,
The tears she cried every time he went away.
Alas-even a step-sister I have!
Why that lady blossomed now I comprehend.
The buisness deals and trips all add up:
And the crack has finally let up
And broken us all into tiny cutting pieces.

The lady at school counselled me for a while,you see.
Said with pity time will heal us,you wait and see.
Eight good years I have waited through:
And the hurt is still as fresh as new.
Every time daddy leaves through that door,
A dark cloud passes over my eyes,
A tear drops for those I love
And I know what's in me cannot be undone.

My mommy left, you see
Said she couldn't take no more nonsense from him.
I stayed behind for reasons I know best.
Then I think of her.I think of daddy.I want to vomit.
He knows not I know,but I know.
Every detail about his double life:
And I have all these secrets in me,
Simply because my daddy decided to have an affair.



Poetry by she
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Written on 2006-06-20 at 08:56

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gills
it is so hard when the ones we love the most (our parent) make life choices that ter the family apart and make all the children weep... Have faith in you as a good person although your father is a huge part of u his actions have left a huge unhealable scar - what heals this sort of betrayal when done by a parent???
Thanks anyhow for the write - very sad and heartfelt as well as heart braking
2006-12-19


Audrey Barber
Dear Zainab
If this really happened to you I am so sorry. I was one who suffered cheating lying bullshit ways of a man. But I have long learnt not to dwell in that pain. Life is too precious to waste of such men, if he could do it to one woman doing to the next will not be a problem.

The world does not revolve around such people leave them alone to their own fate. You must learn from thier mistakes and grow up to be the better person.

Love
Audrey
2006-09-27


Zainab
You are from kenya we are neighbours i see coz I'm from tanzania
Welcome again to poetbay! ^^
2006-09-05


Zainab
This is such a sweet and sad poem
You expressed the way you were blind to see what was exactly going on.
Rate:4
2006-09-05


CC
I love your formulations.. they create a brilliant pattern through this poem with an amazing theme. The childish tone works, but sometimes the diction gets a bit to childish. Other than that the only thing i could critisise on is the habit of capital start of a line and that you use a bit too many commas and similar which seem superfluous
2006-09-05


Malin Johansson
A very good poem!!
Oh I cried when I read this one, and I'm still crying!!! a very sad poem, cheating is one of the things that creates the biggest wounds, and they never seem to heal...
Hugs to you
2006-06-20


Zoya Zaidi
SHE!!!!!!!!!
This is the most poignant piece
That I have read in so many years.
So much pain, so much suffering,
So much anguish of the heart?
So much honesty in narration,
Right from the very start.
My heart goes out to you, my friend,
It really bleeds for you, it understands
Your every suffering, it cries in the night for you...

***Hugs dear SHE to ease some of the suffering***
Love, xxx, Zoya

*Bookmarked*
2006-06-20


Teala
Adultery hurts so many people in it's process. I hope you are able to heal!
2006-06-20