Anorexia Nervosa
1999 - 2005



Anorexia


I starved through days and nights
in a hope and longing for always to be proud
I wanted people to see my success in my glittering dead eyes
My soul were then just a disquise

I starved through time and time
in hope to find myself beautiful in other anaeyes
I needed my bones my skeleton to show
as my face became livingly dead

I starved through my youth
knowing it was all wrong, but there was nothing to do
My best friend "ana" made me strong
I held my head up to show proudness of what I had become

I starved through happiness
people let their wandered eye see my body from top to toe
The girl I used to be, but never again, not anymore
and so it went on and on

I starved through pain and misery
anguish became my miseryfriend, it was the only voice that spoke to me
The anguish forced me to horrible things
I let the ana take my soul, fly away with skinny wings

I starved and I starved
people were afriad, I could see it their eyes
And yes I had the pain and sense inside of me, sometimes I cried
but I always protected my friend, the ana I hide

I starved untill that day
that day I fell apart
My legs could no longer stand strong
I had reached the bottom

I understood, and knew this could not go on
I had to become whole again
I knew I had to leave my anafriend
so I started to eat, breath and live again




Poetry by Malin Johansson
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Written on 2006-06-21 at 11:26

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Esti D-G
Loved it , packing a powerful one.
Agree with all previous comments.
tons of luv esti
2006-07-08



That is a part of our life but dont be afraid!!!nice poem!! tc and GOD bless!!!kissess
2006-06-22


night soul woman The PoetBay support member heart!
*smile* I will just say: Welcome back to life :)
2006-06-21


Kathy Lockhart
Malin, how generous of you to share with us this deeply personal write. It is a mirror into the horrors of anorexia. I applaud you dear one for not only sharing this but also for the quality of the poem. Deeply moving! it is bookmarked...:) kathy
2006-06-21


Amanda K
loved ure theme. u discussed a diesease that is attacking teens mostly and wut i loved that u did narrate it. a good job
2006-06-21


lastromantichero The PoetBay support member heart!
very couragious text and so powerful of a torment you endured well done rgds mike
2006-06-21