On The Whole's Identityless Consciousness

 

I reside in a glass cube of undefined proportions,

enclosing a kind of randomized observability;

assumptions, expectations, and a reasonable duration,

clear in the immediacy of the close by & near,

more vague in the distant past of the farthest regions,

with a view backwards, to all that has occurred

and must be reassessed,

as well as up ahead, into the expected, feared or unforeseen,

as of today with an outer perimeter in the direction of danger,

someplace beyond New Year, within the month of January,

with all transitions materializing, clear or blurred

across the cube's sides, left & right;

imperfect & futurum undergoing diffuse intermediate phases,

their characters modular, interchangeable & insertable,

tumbling in an unclear future's emergence

and an etched past's false conviction of materiality,

constructed in reassessment,

where everything collapses & erodes,

soon to see its Phoenix Bird rise in New Uninhabited Thoughts



Various kind of voids jostle, growl, whisper

and somewhere I hear Lilian Wolf laughing sharply,

like Witch Mara



Images flicker across the glass cube's interior,

- akin to the anxiety-dampening Doris projections in empty space

that the Mima in Spaceship Aniara offered the lost refugees -

fleeting like hallucinatory trees & buildings,

bent away through the raging fait accompli

of a train's compartment window across the landscape;

vague transient acquaintances, series of one-night stands,

a face in a crowd, someone screaming in orgasm

or crying for a cat – and those who shouted or died long ago



We are shadows at the bottom of our thoughtfulness



The body throbs in compulsive becoming;

retrospectively cracked, cut down, disfigured, minced;

flushed down storm drains with Olof Palme's blood,

purified, de-identified, merged with the drift of the Earth

and sucked up

into the Identityless Consciousness of the Great Whole



Yes, there's a tug at the moorings of the body

when I think of the next second,

and then remember it

in a series of seconds drifting into the foresight,

the cube vibrating like Heisenberg's uncertainty

or a trembling crème brûlée,

enthroned atop a French kitchen table;

memory losses compensated with excess

and standard packaging



Myself, I'm here to assist the day and the glass cube

with body, anatomy, corpse, remains;

it's my task, my nature, my categorical imperative,

so obvious that I don't experience it



For something to be experienced, it needs to roughen a bit,

bounce, slip, brake, deviate, turn, tickle, caress,

touch, scratch, tear, grope



I lie stacked in attoseconds

in a conceived arc,

slanting outward like a rocket launch from Vostochny



No matter how often – theoretically, hypothetically – I layer myself,

I'm everytime, fundamentally, a bit different,

for ”close” does not clone identity



The self is a series of momentary snapshots, barely;

each one – in dancing sequences of glass cubes -

almost identical to the double helixes of DNA







Poetry by Ingvar Loco Nordin The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2023-12-16 at 17:01

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Sameen The PoetBay support member heart!
Its amazing how you said so much here but then summarized it so well in the last verse
2023-12-18


Sona The PoetBay support member heart!
so many phrases to note here. Your metaphors are a school in themselves.
2023-12-17