The Good-Bye Never Said


‘She turned away, but the autumn weather
Compelled my imagination many day,
Many days and many hours '
TS Eliot in ‘La Figlia Che Piange’


As I sat on the train to nowhere
It suddenly dawned on me:
It was over!

Years of passionate dreams,
Soul stirring loving, caring
fulfilling, craving,
anguished, agonizing feelings-
All coming to nothing
Nothing…

The days flashed back in my mind’s eye,
filled with tears of remorse and anguish,
of senseless loss and useless ambles
Into the realm of passionate sojourns…

My heart began to sink somewhere
Into the black pit-less abyss
of the wounded soul…

This is not how I had imagined the end….
No good-byes…
No letters sent….

I was saying good-bye to my feelings…
Realizing the beginning of an end....

All went dark before my eyes,
As I silently said good bye-
Long after you were out of my sight….

How to hide the ashen face?
The look of pain-
to drown the rain
of tears welling up-

But, not on the train!

I wanted to howl
Give vent to my pain-
But, all I did was to avert my face,
Stare out of the window and pretend:
It was alright …

And hope that no one would notice…

All the while trying desperately in vain
To stay my bursting heart,
Control my choking breath,
To stifle a sob
To muster up a feeble embarrassed smile-

Supreme effort!

And that moment like a demon of the past
Sometimes comes on lonesome nights,
Stands in front of my wakeful eyes
And asks:
‘How did you endure that night?’


And my heart again rents a bit …


Maybe we should have said good-bye…



Author: Zoya Zaidi
Aligarh (UP), India
Copyright©: Zoya Zaidi




Poetry by Zoya Zaidi
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Written on 2006-09-19 at 15:29

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penfold18
An excellent write Zoya and one strung with emotions.
2007-05-25


Michelle Panter
This is such an amazing piece of work, what an emotional journey... very well done!!
2006-10-05


Tina
Good-bye's the saddest word I'll ever hear, as Celine Dion says, and sure it is, good-bye is one of the strongest words you can ever say or hear, and I think you've got it well in this text. 'Cause sometimes it's better when you say it, in a strange way you are through and can live on.

You are great dear Zoya

- Tina
2006-09-20


Saga
Strong and poignant tribute to the mourning of another!!!!
2006-09-19


Arti
Sorrowing words pour fast from within
the lonely breast, where the crying heart
beats a solo rhythm and discordant notes
to soothe itself.
Touch me deep within with your beat, o
heart of the weeping beat, for I find
solace in the burning embrace of your arms.
2006-09-19


Kathy Lockhart
I feel the tears hot on my cheeks. I feel for this one so in pain with the reality and sadness of a lost love. Just to have is cut off so severely must have been agonizing! There must be times for goodbye. xx kathy
2006-09-19


wee2souls
Zoya!! this is unbelievable
love this the way you express
heart wrenching the pain in this
read ,,and how I enjoyed
this greatly!!
lovely expressions:) fav!!!
love
cindy:))))
2006-09-19



This is so true, Zoya! An unsaid goodbye can haunt for such a long time!
This poem goes straight to that tender spot in the reader's heart!
2006-09-19


lastromantichero The PoetBay support member heart!
Zoya this is a beautiful and yet painful text i have this image of regretful necessity and yet how the yearning carries on a lovely text and in my favs
and for you a special kiss xxxxx

no two or three or for

you know something this makes me feel we met too late lolololol

and i say that respectfully
rgds Michael
2006-09-19