Such a short story


GIFT OF A RHYTHM


She was looking out of the window , lying on her bed ; the eyes closed and thoughts elusive. It was impossible to guess what she was thinking . I was standing at her bedside in her house . The evening had an austere quality about it as if brooding . I could hear her words echoing last night . The beautiful eyes searching mine :
" Well , Dear , say something to me"
A smile – so pretty and haunted my dreams .
" I have to go" , I said .
" I know you will never come back"
The pain was unbearable ; I really had to go .
She had turned her face towards me :
" How can I live the rest of my life?"

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She was so achingly young ! And my heart would fill with an emotion I couldn't define , whenever I looked at her beautiful face . I was in love. . So deeply in love . Passions conjured up such a bliss that the sweet nothings of the season , I couldn't help possessing . She was sitting near me when I once said:
" I know one day I will hurt you , dear"
She was in my arms , kissing .
Suddenly she was saying : " I know only too well there is nothing but pain for me at the end of the road . But darling , my life was so full of sorrows that it doesn't matter any more . One of those lives where there never would be a moment of peace . These little moments of love I value so much . I can't ask for more . When these end I am ready to embrace that exquisite agony ."
" O! my dear , please don't...."
" What you have written for my birthday?"
" A stanza only"
" Show me"
" No. Only on your birthday"

And then one day she asked me : " Which is easy – To hurt others or to hurt oneself?
" What a strange question you ask?"
" Well , tell me , dear"
" Should I know the answer?"
" I am not sure. Only I just asked"

She wanted so much to write . She would ask me :
" Teach me how to write poems"
" There is nothing to teach . Just identify yourself and what you feel"
" One day I will write a poem for you"
" A stanza ?"
She was smiling : " May be a couplet only"

She was there at her door steps , waiting for me . The frilled ,dainty dresss , the rose adorning her tresses , the beautiful dimples blooming in a wistful serenity and the smile that for once made me at peace with myself . She hugged me , kissing :
" I was waiting for you"
" You look so pretty , honey"
" How you wish me on my birthday?"
" I want to whisper in your ears"
" Tell me , darling"
She was relaxing on my bosom .

' The gleeful stars of this December
The petite butterflies you adore
The dreams knocking at your door
The scented breath of this night
( A gift of your tresses , I wonder ! )
And a heart steeped in love :
They all remember when you're born .
May these wishes lace your life
As the myriad delights for ever .'

" Let's die together"
I was silent . She was continuing:
" Life had been too harsh and long"
I heard myself saying :
" No , I have to live . As a retribution for hurting you . Each moment from now onwards , I have to live , reminding myself that I had destroyed you . To bestow so much and then take away so soon ... You can curse me , dear . My life will be there , dragging on ...For all the burdens to bear.. For all the torment to endure . And one day when it ends , I will be a very happy man ."

" Write something for me a last time . I will never ask you again ."
She was really hurting me . I had to write :

' Don't relish my poems , O ! so much ;
They're drops from a bleeding heart .
Don't you dabble with this rippling expanse ;
They're only an ocean of tears .
Never marvel these melodies to your dream ;
For they are sobs of a soul in torment .'

I had to meet her at her house . May be for the final time in my life . She might be there at her doorsteps , this time too , to embrace me . And this sheet of paper in my pocket . It was impossible for me to tell her although she knew . She was not at her doorsteps . I entered her drawing room . She was nowhere to be seen . And in her bedroom , I saw her . Lying as if in a light repose .. The soft hair in a faint ripple over her face , by the evening breeze . And the same old ache in the heart welling up inside me...when I saw her for the very first time . She was looking extremely beautiful to my eyes . I couldn't wake her up . I had to congregate the only treasures of my life . The sublime remembrances .. The gems of my lonely life . And a terrible ordeal stretching infront of me . The long dreary years ahead ...
I placed the sheet of paper near her hand .
I started to turn . Something caught my eye . A letter placed on her writing table near . Addressed to me . A pallid sheet folded at the middle. I opened it :
'This is for you ; my first poem , not a stanza but a couplet only .'
I could see her writing those . The tender fingers moving along in a rhythm :

' Why you did kill me , O! dearest love
While I was there just dying for you '




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Short story by binesh
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Written on 2006-09-20 at 17:54

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Most endearing love story I have read in a long time.
2007-07-02


Amanda K
DEAR,

This is one of the greates poems i have read here.It' moving and very touching to the core, Makes the heart chocked with tears and feeling so speechless. Awesome!!!!!!Bookmarked.
2006-11-03


Emelén The PoetBay support member heart!
you tell it the way it should be told . and the death , like the birth the way it opens life . this is a great write .
2006-10-08


Arti
How did I miss this? You're a powerful writer. Such a tender write, such a beautiful tribute. And the ending is heart-wrenching, moves me to tears, this love.

Beauty is born from the heart that bleeds
And then gives life to him who needs
The gentle shelter of Love's first grace...
And you cry, tears streaming down your face
Your broken beloved uproots your love's mythical seeds...
2006-09-23