Redemption

It plagues me all the time;
that haunting thought.
And cant make up my mind,
cant draw the line,
between a little success and absolute failure.

Have I been less than ordinary?
Did i overrate myself?
The thoughts oppress.
Am i a non entity ?
Am i faceless in this crowd?
Have really made anyone proud?

I dig and dig,
try and find a reason,
why am i existing ;
can i ever find redemption
for all the Wrong decisions and mediocrities?
Would it make me any better?

Mediocrity has hurt me,
All through my life.
Created an enormous strife ..
Between peace of mind and ambitions .

The pleasures of small achievements
and self belief,
are all but a glass wall .
Easily shattered.
It leaves my mind battered
Every other day ..

I wonder if there are others like me,
people who feel this way.
I dont know what will heal
what would save ..
my heart and mind that cries everyday .

I wanna be happy for once
I wanna break free of my expectations
The burden of my ambitions.

I want to live without inhibitions.
I dont want to push my self.
I just want to wander,
all by myself

I need a place to scream and scream.
I wanna scream these thoughts out .
To let loose all the tears that shroud
my existence .
I wanna run amock,
through the crazy streets.
I wanna cry and cry
like i hv lost every thing.
I dont wanna come back,
to this existence ; this pretense
of comfort,
this feigned happiness.

Hope this would be my redemption...
Redemption for a life less than ordinary.




Poetry by Dona
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Written on 2008-09-30 at 09:55

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maxmedo
yeah i feel the same way, sometimes i think im passing that thin line between success and failure going to sucess but i found myself failed at the end :S but anyways that doesnt mean i will give up at all...i still wonder have i made any one proud yet...but you know what matters is you yourself, if you can make yourself proud then everybody will be proud of you, if you respect yourself then others will respect you...keep ypu head up high always...peace of mind and ambitions hmm i always say people who have great ambitions have great worries, so if you worry alot know that you have alot of ambitions, this is exactly what im thinking of right now , your words are hitting the right spot in my mind...
"The pleasures of small achievements
and self belief,
are all but a glass wall.
Easily shattered.
"...this is great, i mean expressing those small acheivments like glass walls is WOW, they are but you know i always try to support glass with small fibres..never heard of fibred-glass?? even when it shatters it holds it self and doesnt fall off great eh! :P
break free from your expextations WOW you write in a way that can unloxk things off my mind, i mean i do understand this so much...
i feel the same way and i alwasy asked the same question to myself..this is great
*APPLAUSES*
you're such a writer,
i liked reading this text alot
and welcome to the bay...
im happy that your first text left such a great impression :D *smiling*


~Max

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