partly fictional.
it's a mess, just like all my writings.



Finale

I didn't mean to.

Really. It was an accident.

I know I've said some things recently that may make you think I did it on purpose, but it wasn't.
At least I don't think so.

I don't know what happened. I drive that route twice a day, every day.

I'm so sorry.

I was never afraid of this. I was afraid of this for other people, but never for myself.
Even now I'm not afraid. My biggest fear has always been my future. Now I see my future, so I have no more questions. No more fears.

But really I am sorry. I hope I don't cause anybody heartache.
I hope nobody has to feel the heartache I felt.

I've thought about who would miss me. I guess now I'll get to see.

I hope I make a difference in someone's life.
I hope those I love know how much they meant to me.

I made a list once, of everybody who I thought may shed a tear for me.

Of past loves.
Of those who hold my secrets.
Of family members I spent countless Thanksgivings with.
Of those with who I once shared kisses.
Of those whose shoulders I have cried into.
Of who I have let cry on my shoulder.
Of those I will never meet.

I hope to never have to see the face on someone I love's face when they learn of this. My greatest fear alone was losing someone in this same manner.

When Sydney died, though I did not know her, my heart was broken. All I could think of was if this had happened to someone I knew. If I had switched places with her best friend. How would I be able to go on?

If I could say one thing to those I am unfortunately leaving behind, it would be to live and to love and to cherish each moment; to let people know how you felt about them because you never know when someone's time may run out.

God has a wicked sense of humor when it comes to life and death.




Words by kgirard
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Written on 2008-12-09 at 04:08

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Sun.Moon.Stars.Rain
i love your style, and this...is beyond haunting. if it's a "mess", it's a poetic, heart-tearing one. amazing write.
2008-12-15


rgaunt
that was one of the most powerful things i've ever read.
i don't even know what to say.
except that i love you.
2008-12-09