Why Does This Crap Affect Me?

I don't understand this mood
The lights are on
But no one's home
I feel different
I'm only normal whenI talk to Scott
And I'm addicted to that feeling
I'm dependent on his texts
To make me feel happy
To make me feel normal
Ever since...
Ever since I screwed it up at home
Ever since...
Ever since I almost got kicked out
Ever since...
Ever since things are different at home
I'm numb
And lost
In the darkness
Even school is different
Ever since...
The rumours
They make me feel weird
I don't get why this is all such a big affect on me
I've coped with a lot worse
I mean compared to the other crap
This is a vacation compared to it
So why does it affect me so much?
I'm so just not myself
I'm just I don't know
Why can't I just be me?



Poetry by Rachy
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Written on 2009-06-28 at 11:11

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Rob Graber
I really like the last three lines. "I'm so just not myself" is great, and using the word "just" in different senses is really effective. Do note that line 7 needs "texts" since it is an ordinary plural, not a possessive.
2009-06-28