My heart yearns for you
The depth of my feelings scare me.each small insignificant thing hurts me a lot,
a gash opening within my heart,
your betrayal ramming against my heartbeats
and pulling at my heartstrings.
Yet, you never betrayed me.
A tiny thing which hurt me,
and I already blow things out of proportion,
feeling that you were inconsiderate,
no longer loved me even.
How do I explain to you,
that it is the small things that matter the most,
that hurt the deepest.
Each little stroke tearing at my heart,
the pounding realisation that you slipped,
a little.
The staunch fear that you will slip much more,
and I will lose you.
Each word having a deeply entrenched meaning,
the slight ache felt when a word is misused.
My heart yearns for much more,
yet how do I convey this to you,
without you moving away in fear.
The intensity of my feelings baffle me.
I have never allowed myself to love that much,
so it seems.
Nevertheless everytime I have loved,
I loved with the same crazy wholeheartedness,
I realise the pain I cause you ach passing day,
feeling the gap between us increasing day by day,
my taunts and ramblings unnecessary,
the fear that I experience causing me to utter words I wished I never said.
I only wish to tell you that I love you,
with a depth and intensity that scares me.
I can imagine myself falling apart if you leave,
my world bleak before you came,
and even bleaker now that I am destroying what is between us.
I never wished for all of this to happen,
I am just holding on too strongly to something that never was mine.
Poetry by myst_ery
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Written on 2013-03-08 at 20:42
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