I didn't know what beauty was 
because beauty was everywhere
but I was told that via comparison
you understand what beauty is
Someone for example told me:

"oh how I love your skin my skin looked the same
once upon a time but now I am older
Oh I really love your skin lucky you!"Ok

I thought

to myself when the skin looks like that it is
something beautiful that I need to pay more
attention to and feel extra content with but
I LOVE and there is beauty in love To love
to be love aaah Anyway so one day that I felt
tired and needed a pick me up I start observing
my skin to my horror my skin didn't look exactly 
the same as it once was like like that day I learned
what beauty is

. . . to be continued

I was talking to the sun all along 
while discovering my very own song
A way to find where I belong
In my hands I kept the seeds

With my mind I envisioned them in full bloom
My eyes stopped searching with eager fascination
for a way to synchronize my youtful inner emptiness
with the outer world

Oh sun and moon inside my heart 
keep touching me even when I miss you
I will forever exist beyond the opposites
Be in two places at once Beautiful and Ugly

like you and you we will never feel alone
even while being observed and transform
to something else in the eyes of someone that
feels alone, that feels the need to belong with 

the ones that seem to be able to survive maybe 
under their protection he/she will keep making it 
through the eternal night of conditioned fulness
struggling with the emptiness it brings


"...wrapped in her ever invisible robes..."
quote by unknown from the Book of Dzyan

Summertime sadness 
transformed to 
summertime gladness

but I will remember both of them
every time I see the summer rain 

As a child the summer rain meant that I had to
stay in and not keep discovering what the world 
has to offer

Now, every time it rains I smile and feel relief
no need to water my flower seeds and the plants 
today Thanks to the rain! As I grow younger I learn 
how to be a part of the world instead of just taking of
what it has to offer I do my part so for example the bees 
the butterflies the insects the birds will find a place to rest 
in my garden Find nourishment

I no longer need to search for beauty in others
I create beautiful moments together with others 
We create moments instead of time creating us 
-who we are right now- Old or Young





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Part III Written on 2014-06-22 at 22:04