A short text about not fitting in and about being trapped inside yourself. It's inspired by one of my trans-male friends and everything he has gone through (and still does).


A Boy Like Me

When will humanity accept a boy like me?
I am not fully male, but neither do I feel like a female.

A man trapped in a woman's body.
An imaginary being with a mind of my own, with thoughts of my own.
I'm a boy hiding under layers of makeup, cute clothes and a hairdo more fitting for a princess.
Hiding, betraying myself.

I am an actor.
Pretending to be something I am not. Always wearing an outfit not meant for me, a body that is not mine.
An actor, desperate to break free from his role.

I am a philosopher.
Always thinking, wondering, dreaming.
Will I ever meet somebody who sees through my shell, sees the real me.
Someone who treats me the way I want to be treated.
Treated like the man I am deep inside.

Will someone notice my existence and see me for who I really am?
Not for who I pretend to be...
Not the woman that is my face and my body, but the man who is my soul and my heart.

I am a prisoner.
Trapped within myself.
Excluded from my family and friends, a person with no allies.
Bound by chains, invisible shackles that holds me back.
Handcuffs that is created by myself, for myself.
Because I am too afraid to tell them who I am..
Because I was born a female.
Because I want to be a man.

Because I AM a man.



Poetry by PrincessBon
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Written on 2015-07-20 at 17:46

Tags Hbtq  Stereotypes  Bravery 

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Jamsbo Rockda The PoetBay support member heart!
A wonderful read. A statement of individuality that is reliant on who we want to be. You described the struggle that society imposes on people who feel they must conform to archaic norms so very well :)
2015-07-23


Arunesh dixit
Hi Emma, As this is about your friend, I can say you have voiced him in a very loud manner here. Nicely written.
2015-07-21



You have taken your first step here and shouted it out for all to hear: YOU ARE A MAN. Now go tell the rest of the world. I think you will find more understanding than you think Start living your real life and feel the happiness and the love. Best wishes.
2015-07-21



Well, attitudes do seem to be changing toward gender roles, if only at a snail's pace.

It must be very hard for your friends, but at least they have you on their side. Enjoyed your poem.
2015-07-21


Ivan R
Great piece, great things said, expressed, bravo*

You go man!
2015-07-21


ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
We are as we are
Not always what
Shows to the out
Side eye
Ken D

And you are most welcome to poetbay
2015-07-20