It's not that I wish I had a dad or that he was around for more of my childhood.It's not that I wish I didn't have to see everyone selfies with their fathers and the mushy brand  just tvideos. It's that it reminds me how I'm different and I could never relate to what most people. I'm trying to make it sound poetic. But it doesn't.  I'm sad. I'm sad that I'm almost 30 and not married yet. I'm sad that my mom won't even talk about the existence of my boyfriend. I'm sad that I'm not 100% happy in my relationship and I have no power to change it. I'm angry that he made out with someone else and I'm still with him.