Dear strawberry, this was about my friend who lost her husband and I wanted to encourage her.
It was that moment that everything stopped in a few seconds my world turned dark he was no more my anchor, my hero, my world, my everything was no more in this world he had left me. Blue turned black and my world split in the middle leaving me with no choice but to be still in silence.
So had we had the last conversation, had I learnt something new about you, did we have our last fight, did I tell you I love forever or had time made our forever to hours. When that call came with a million questions about what you wore that day my heart stopped, felt weak, lost, confused and broken. I stood in that stillness without knowing what to do because my soul mate had left me physically.
The emptiness that followed and pain that is unexplainable. How do I find the good in goodbye if the goodbye was never said, not even a last kiss to seal our sins, how will time heal something it stole from me, can there be hope for what, how do I find God in the darkness. With this pain came the strength to look up and trust God to be strong in my weakness for the sake of Kelly.
Be still even in worst of the moments because the world you knew was about to change to something else so stillness!
Its been two years since you left I know I have a fickle heart, the bitterness and wondering why and the heaviness in my head, how was I going to face the world without. Ohh honey if you knew how much I missed your eyes, voice, touch, scent and your breath. The tears could not end the pain, I could no longer think straight had lost it and in the midst of all this I brought the bound of joy to this world our daughter Kelly it breaks my heart every day knowing that she did not meet you or know what a wonderful person you are but everything changed because now I had some part of you in her when I see her face am encouraged because I see you daily. So the pain stood still and gave way to love, our love our hope our baby our cutie.
They said time heals all wounds they lie cause am still hurting, whatever I tried did not work! I was so cold, emotionless, wounded and could not hear God saying be still and know that I am God.
It's been 365 days + 365 days and today I choose to say I miss you now more than ever. I still love even after all the skeletons in your closet were strong enough to lie next to me I still love you! Yes am going to smile because in this journey I met God who has been my hope, strength, peace and a future. He taught me to be calm in the storm trusting him to be my all in all.
Hope like never before, laugh my heart out, sing the unwritten songs, dance until my feet cannot do it anymore, paint with colors of love, write words that are permanent, breath as though it was my last moment because am grateful to the heavens for allowing love to find me and been part of making the magic that changed my life forever! So God give it to me bring love my way again that I may live this world with hope that love can be found more once in a lifetime.
Wamaitha
Poetry by Wamaitha
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Written on 2015-03-25 at 07:20
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It was that moment that everything stopped in a few seconds my world turned dark he was no more my anchor, my hero, my world, my everything was no more in this world he had left me. Blue turned black and my world split in the middle leaving me with no choice but to be still in silence.
So had we had the last conversation, had I learnt something new about you, did we have our last fight, did I tell you I love forever or had time made our forever to hours. When that call came with a million questions about what you wore that day my heart stopped, felt weak, lost, confused and broken. I stood in that stillness without knowing what to do because my soul mate had left me physically.
The emptiness that followed and pain that is unexplainable. How do I find the good in goodbye if the goodbye was never said, not even a last kiss to seal our sins, how will time heal something it stole from me, can there be hope for what, how do I find God in the darkness. With this pain came the strength to look up and trust God to be strong in my weakness for the sake of Kelly.
Be still even in worst of the moments because the world you knew was about to change to something else so stillness!
Its been two years since you left I know I have a fickle heart, the bitterness and wondering why and the heaviness in my head, how was I going to face the world without. Ohh honey if you knew how much I missed your eyes, voice, touch, scent and your breath. The tears could not end the pain, I could no longer think straight had lost it and in the midst of all this I brought the bound of joy to this world our daughter Kelly it breaks my heart every day knowing that she did not meet you or know what a wonderful person you are but everything changed because now I had some part of you in her when I see her face am encouraged because I see you daily. So the pain stood still and gave way to love, our love our hope our baby our cutie.
They said time heals all wounds they lie cause am still hurting, whatever I tried did not work! I was so cold, emotionless, wounded and could not hear God saying be still and know that I am God.
It's been 365 days + 365 days and today I choose to say I miss you now more than ever. I still love even after all the skeletons in your closet were strong enough to lie next to me I still love you! Yes am going to smile because in this journey I met God who has been my hope, strength, peace and a future. He taught me to be calm in the storm trusting him to be my all in all.
Hope like never before, laugh my heart out, sing the unwritten songs, dance until my feet cannot do it anymore, paint with colors of love, write words that are permanent, breath as though it was my last moment because am grateful to the heavens for allowing love to find me and been part of making the magic that changed my life forever! So God give it to me bring love my way again that I may live this world with hope that love can be found more once in a lifetime.
Wamaitha
Poetry by Wamaitha
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Written on 2015-03-25 at 07:20
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