But I Had to Say

I know there’s not much I can say that you would want to believe,
Because I hurt you and that makes it so much harder to breathe.
I did you wrong and I live with the shame of that disgrace,
And my heart wrenches when I think of the tears upon your face.

Because I put them there when I failed to be true,
When I said the only woman I would ever love would be you.
I thought it could be hidden, to hide what I had done,
But the stain was still there and lies had begun.

But in my heart I know there’s only room for one,
And that one is still you, and it’s you or I’m done.
I told you that you are the last woman that I will ever love,
And that is still the truth, because it’s you or I’m done.

I know you don’t want to believe me because I didn’t speak the truth,
About what I did but what was I supposed to do?
The truth would have hurt you, but the secrets did so more,
And now I’m still up wishing you’d walk back in through my door.

You said you can’t trust me and that I acted like him,
And out of anger I fed my devils and demons within.
But in my heart I know that you’re the only one,
And if it’s not you than I know that I am done.

I know it’s you when I look into your eyes,
And I feel your lips interlocking with mine.
When you hold my hand, it is my heart that you hold,
And it’s you that I see when I think of me when I’m old.

If I swear that never again would I touch another woman,
If I swear to have eyes that can only see you, and
If I swear to be the one who builds you a castle you call home,
If you see my words in action, will that begin to atone?

The dreams I spoke about with you on how I’d show my love,
Swearing on an oath ring and swearing to your god above.
I still have those dreams where we stand together as one,
Where you’re holding my hand until this life is over with and done.

I love you and want you and the thought of you alone tonight,
Scares me to death and that you may have given up the fight.
Scream at me and hit me and tell me that I betrayed your trust,
But don’t walk away from the day when it’s dusk.

The present, I know, looks dark and the road looks tough,
But we can get through the night if we love each other enough.
So I’m saying that I’m sorry for betraying your trust,
No more under-the-rug as I’m sweeping up the dust.

You’re the woman of my dreams with your beauty and heart,
And without you in my life my world breaks and falls apart.
I know you’re hurt, and your heart needs to heal,
But I thought that I would share with you exactly how I feel.

You can take my words for what they’re worth or never even hear them,
But I had to say them so if someday you read this and see them,
That you’re the only reason that I have to want to keep on dreaming,
And by dreaming I mean the one thing that gives me hope.




Poetry by Bonehead83
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Written on 2022-05-18 at 15:21

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