Never learnt

We learn from our mistakes, they say
And I believed them, until today
I have not yet learnt from my mistakes
I still commit the same mistake again and again
Which has lead me to nothing but pain.

I start my day
Imagining myself to be with you
I do the things
Which would please you
I often walk around the house
As if expecting to see you
I know you would never be with me
But I still cannot learn to live without you

When I walk along the street
I assume you walking besides me
I talk to you, keep blabbering all the way
Till I realize people are staring at me
I slow down, pick up a place to sit
I look at children playing in the garden
And hope we could have had one
We could have lived together
Like one happy family
But I know that cannot be
Yet I have not learnt
To see myself without you

When I return home, tired
And throw myself on the bed
At the same time I expect you
To come and lie down next to me
To tell me about your day
And ask me about mine
Take me in your arms, hold me close
And let the love flow
But I know it cannot be so
Before I know why
A silent tear falls on my pillow
And I lie down on the bed, alone
Promising myself not to repeat my mistake tomorrow.




Poetry by Akansha
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Written on 2005-06-12 at 16:01

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chasingtheday The PoetBay support member heart!
such a sad piece - loveand longing and sorrow hoping for joy and beauty - mistakes, i think we do make them time and again. a good poem, very sad.
2005-07-02