myself

every time the thought crosses my mind, my heart would ache
the thought of no one at my side when I'm at Heaven's Gate
because it's hard for me to make friends that are right in front of me
where the smile, frowns, and all other emotions, I can see
but in reality I'm a hard person to talk to
most times I won't say anything because I don't know what to do
I usually have nothing to do so a lot of times I daydream
I'm sorry that if I don't respond to others, though I'm not actually mean
In class I would sit there and look into space
I would daydream even if there isn't any extra time for me to waste
lots of times I was to pass school without talking to teachers for the year
though to talk to them is something that I don't really care
sometimes I would go through school without a word the whole day
because there won't be anyone who would bother to of said "hey"
I'm alone though I'm continuing myself to be
my mind and heart are mixed and what is it that I want, I can't see
right now I'm trying to pass life as fast as I can
a part of me wants to hurry up and end my time on this land
I have many sides where most or a lot of them are the complete opposite
one that believes that hope is dead and another that keeps hope's light lit
a part of me that always tried to keep others away
and another part that really wants friends that'll stay
a side of me that wants it so I'm dead
and a side that tells me to stay alive instead
even if I make up my mind and choose which to obey
the voices of the other ones would continue to stay
sometimes they come out when I think or a lot of times out of nowhere
other times I would listen to them unknowingly following the voice I hear
I can't control some things that I myself don't want to do
so I'm looking for the person who'll help me make this fact no longer true




Poetry by broken wings
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Written on 2007-03-01 at 14:33

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