She drives me crazy, but as a child I am sure that I drove HER crazy. I owe her peace and care in her old age......I am doing my duty.


Carer's Lament.

I'm caring for mum, she is losing her mind.
(I never liked her much, but I try to be kind.)
"Is it Friday today? Is it Wednesday tomorrow?"
These questions drive me to so much sorrow...

Born in the twenties, worked for the second world war,
(although all her uncles were killed in the one before.)
She married my dad, was a mum hard and cruel,
but she always made breakfast and sent us to school.

Arriving home at 4, there was always tea ready,
our lives were quite scarey, but somehow quite steady.
Obsessed with herself, and what next-door would think,
to madness she drove me right to the brink.

But now she is old, and deserves all the best.
As daughter, I am really put to the test.
Although she is old now, she can be unkind,
she tortures my soul, and ruins my mind.

My Father is gone now, he was one of the best,
I am glad he is now in Eternal Rest.
He gave all his life to his kids and his wife,
she is left here to wish she had Eternal Life.

And I am here too, his last wish to fulfill,
"Look after your mother, my life's love, my Dil."
His last words were those, (badly chose,)
his hands and his face, with my life will close.

I know those words that ring in my brain,
I hear them repeated again and again....
"they fuck you up, your mum and dad,
they do not mean to, but they do.
They give you all the faults they had,
then add some extra, just for you.*"

Forever in my heart my dad will live,
his whole life, he did naught but give.
His wife's still here, my mother I know,
I wish she'd die and let me grow.

*The first words of a poem, "They Fuck you up, Your mum and dad.) I can't recall the poet.




Poetry by normalil
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Written on 2007-04-04 at 23:43

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ken d williams The PoetBay support member heart!
This work is very good , speacks the thorts of many. Thoe who are trapde by a sense of duty. Of the sufereing now and times past , and seeing no end in sight. A seance of guilt instalde over the years , from childhood to the presant. And in to foutcher We are indavigals we have our own minds. But we are expected to be what others demand that we do their bidding. When an apple drops from the pairent tree . It is not a golden delishoures , but say a granny smith. As I beleave us humans are , we cary the D N A of our perents , but we are our own person,. And as such we should be able to grow as such.
''Our family fuck's us up'' , comes from John Clease , as I recal mind I may be wrong. From a book he wrote with Anterney Clear Cleasae theiropist . It was Cleses perents were found to be the core of his deprestion's and outher problems. So out of this came the quote '' our family fucks us up''.

A very good write Norma , hugs and love , my freind , keep writing pease.

Ken.
2007-07-07


Individuality
it's hard at times, my mum is ill also, my sister lives with her now, but before that which was only a few months back, i used to go and do her shopping for her each week. though my mum does not emss with either my mind or my sister's mind. i am not sure how i would be if that was the case. it is good though that despite the issues between you both you still have the good attitude of saying and indeed doing, looking after her in her time of need, youa re right, when you were a child she cared for you and so it should be when our parents are old and in need of care that we care for them.

scarey - scary
again and again.... - ellipses, three dots only
2007-04-05