evil words.

i promised you not to do it. you trusted me. i fucked it all up. i just had to do it again. the impossible thoughts in my head were not going away. i had to do it. i really shouldnt have. im sorry. you dont trust me anymore. i dont blame you. i promise not to be insecure again. i dont know how thats going along. im trying so hard. maybe you need a better girl? No, no, no, im okay; i promise. i know it will all be fine. you were just seconds away from breaking my heart, seconds away from saying those evil words in your head. i felt this. you couldnt do it because you liked me. and you want this to work just as much as i do. we will be fine. i will be strong. in the meantime, im dying. you dont talk to me the same. you wont smile when we talk. i miss this so much. so much. i cant explain whats in my head. i cant believe i could do this. to you. you. you mean soo much to me. i will do whatever it takes. whatever. i cant lose you. you. you are my main source of happiness.why did i have to do this? am i just a stupid girl, or does this actually mean something? i cant think straight. i think you dont care anymore. i think you dont like me. not as much as you used to. i feel numb. i cant really feel anything, not as the moment. my senses will all tingle when i talk to you again, just like always. i cant even write a poem, just words. i wont be insecure. im strong. i dont need to puncture my skin anymore. i dont want to puncture my skin again. i hope you know what i said to you is more than just words. until then, i cant function.



Words by hrose112
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Written on 2008-12-08 at 03:40

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rgaunt
this is so powerful.
youu, my dear, are amazing.
2008-12-08