From the time I first felt your heart

Until the time I could no longer hear it

I wanted to fix you

I didn't know how, or why.

I knew it would be a waste of time

Trying to fit the exact pieces of my heart

Into yours.

I knew that I couldn't fix what didn't want to be fixed.

But I still gave it my best shot.

You seemed so alone

So frustrated with everything.

It didn't seem right to let you be so shattered.

You seemed breakable

Underneath your heavy shield.

I wanted to give little pieces of me

To you

So that someday you will become whole again.

I wanted to show you what it would be like

To feel useful and loved.

I tried.

But you didn't want my help.

You didn't want to wait for your recovery to finally end.

You didn't want me to care for you.

You didn't wait.

Now, just as you were getting better

You fell back into your routine

Your routine of falling apart.