A pretty long poem, mostly about the feelings I have felt in the past, feelings which can be very destructive. I recently felt the urge to write them down, to maybe help those who are feeling them understand, they're not alone and there's hope!


The Ex-Solitare's Lament and Prayer


Oh dear, how troubling,
Crossroads, once more,
Left or Right I wonder,
Here is my lament.

I have walked freely
from the West to the East
back and forth, twice over,
I know what this world offers.

I sit alone in thought,
if I head to the centre,
claim the limelight for myself,
yet I will be ridiculed!

I sit amongst friends
if I talk, speak my mind,
spill the beans, share my thoughts,
yet I will be thought strange!

I sit amongst strangers
if I speak out, ask names
inquire hobbies, get to know better,
yet I will be rejected!

I sit with my God
if I sincerely, for once
talk to him, me and Him,
Ask forgiveness, admit mistakes,
yet I will be damned to Hell!

Oh how wrong I was!
If only those times...
I had noticed that I could
Just let Him guide me.

If I did so... If only,
I would have avoided...
all the pain, suffering, annoyance,
and fulfill my need,

To love,
others and myself
and to be loved
by myself, and others!



Poetry by .Simon
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Written on 2009-12-20 at 01:09

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jenks The PoetBay support member heart!
life is indeed a complicated journey...
being "different" when young is difficult...
we realise soon enough it is also a strength...
i am enjoying reading your work.
2009-12-20