I am just so depressed today.


Depressed

I feel so very, very bad yes I really, really do,
My friends are so far away and so is my father,
Fuck life I don't care about it anymore,
I just wish I would die and leave,
I am not worth a shit any way,
And all the people that would miss me,
Have something wrong in their heads,
Because I am just an asshole piece if shit,
The clouds are covering me till I can't see,
And the fire will soon engulf my skin,
But fuck it I hope I do die and leave this world,
I can't get all this off my fucked up mind,
I wish I had the guts to kill myself,
But I don't have any guts at all,
They have been taken away, out of my body,
And my soul has been punctured 1000 times too many,
And my body is just to weak to put up with life,
And all the shit that comes with it,
All the bullshit and drama as you girls call it,
Maybe I need to just sit back and chill,
But I can't it is too much to even think about,
I will get over one thing and then something else appears,
And people tell me to go and pray,
Fuck god he hasn't done shit for me,
He let my dad get locked up,
And my uncle die,
and my mom leave,
But sure he died for me,
Bullshit, Bullshit, Bullshit,
Get that fucked up shit away from me,
I don't believe a word of it,
Not a single fucking word,
I am so depresssed and it won't go away,
I can't handle this any fucking more,
So please Mister preacher don't try to tell me this and that,
I already said fuck it all let me die and go to hell,
Sure it will be painful but it isn't like I havn't been there before,
Fuck I am in 7 times hell right now,
So take your 7 times hotter than fire on earth and cram it up your ass,
I hate it here, Please lord kill me you fucking prick,
Take my soul and burn it or whatever you want to do with it,
Just leave me the fuck alone.



Poetry by Justin
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Written on 2006-02-21 at 03:01

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lynn
Dear Justin,
Oh my god Justin, very powerful. Please don't kill yourself!!!! I know that you don't know me but if you ever need/want to talk to anyone I am here and what you tell me is confidential if you want to even talk to me, no I aint going to say shit about god because god did shit for me!!!! I have been in your shoes not entirely but close, my mom died Christmas eve of 2001, my dad is locked up and I don't even know him, when I was six I was molested, I live with people who fucking hate me, but killing yourself really isn't going to help, cutting wrist and doing drugs aint going to do shirt either. Just please don't kill yourself. I promise you that you will get through this. I really am here if you need to talk
(((((Hugs)))))
AMBER LYNN
2006-02-22


Rik The PoetBay support member heart!
Hang in there. I like reading your shit. Its clarity is provoking. Written exactly as it's felt and meant. I wish i could be that honest. And one other thing you only die once, all the time you are living and breathing you have one more chance to taste 'strawberry ice-cream'.
2006-02-21


liz munro The PoetBay support member heart!
We all have these days and this
has made me cry.
Please try to hang in there.
Liz.
2006-02-21