sorry mum...buh....yeah...


Mother

I wish i could treat you as my own,
Buh my heart stops me from telLing you anything personal and secret,
I'm tryin to let you in,
Buh u r like a stranger,
Cuz you never were there, remember?


You keep telin me (now) that you didnt want to do this,
And i dont know what the truth is,
All i know is that i was hurting way too much,
I started cutting and bleeding and such.


I wanna know the truth
I wanna know what made you go away
I dont wanna know what the others have to say
And all i wanted you to do was, STAY.


I was hurting, i was breaking,
I was sinking, i was bleeding,
With no one to help me,
And all you say now is:
"i never chose that, i loved you, i didnt wanna leave you"
BUH THEN WHY DID U LEAVE?
Why did you let me bleed?
Why couldnt you see?
I wanted you,
I needed you!
And Dad was alL alone too,
And he didnt know what to do.


And right now, i know im hurting you,
I know it hurts you,
When i dont reply to those 3 words you say to me,
I know it hurts you when, i move away when you try to kiss me.
But i am, i realLy am trying to let you in,
Buh i just cant.

I wish you did all that back then,
When i was jus 3,
I didnt know anythin
But you were my world.
I loved you.


BUt you left,
(N now you're tellin me it was)To support our little family,
I kept waiting and waiting,
But then i was hopeless and i was breaking,
And you never returned,
And you broke that kid's little heart.

I still have that wound,
And i dont think it will be healed.
And right now...alL i can say is,
My heart is sealed.


And i dont wanna get too attached to you
Cuz i dont know if you'd stay.
I dont wanna hurt you either,
Buh this is all im trying to say:
This time around i dont wanna be hurt!
I've gone through enough!
I was jus a lil kid, Mum
I still am;
And all i ever wanted was you, Mother.





Poetry by aquadragon
Read 733 times
Written on 2011-10-19 at 16:39

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