I feel....alone :/


Here I am

Here I sit alone today,
Loneliness and me - we're very close,
Hiding myself, with a smile I pose.
Alone, I feel every time of day.
Got no one to listen to what I need to say.

Here on my bed I lay,
Waiting to fall asleep.
Alone, everyday.
Comforting myself,
With good times and memories;
Which have long gone away.

Here I am,
Like a loser I feel.
On the outside try to appear,
As strong as steel
The inside is too vulnerable to be revealed,
Too weak, too naive, too scared,
I hide behind this wall I built and try to run away;
Escape.

Here I am
Feeling distant and unloved
Not finding people I can trust
Life isn't clear; it's all dust,
I'm alone, I'm afraid...I need to be loved.




Poetry by aquadragon
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Written on 2013-04-28 at 11:14

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The image of trying to escape the wall you've built stands out in my mind. Maybe because I've been trying to knock out a few walls of my own... I hate feeling alone. I hate feeling afraid. Together, when combined with that wall, well, that's a very heavy thing. Keep writing it out of yourself. *big hugs*

ps. Your poetry is very "readable." :)
2013-04-29


shells
You have the maturity to express yourself and plenty of friends here, "a problem shared is a problem halved." So I hope your writing is lessening the loneliness we all feel at times.
2013-04-28


countryfog
The teenage years can feel horribly lonely ones, but consider that it is then that we are trying to figure out who we are, are becoming, and that can be an awakening often come to alone. It won't always be that way, especially for someone of your sensitivity. I think you are too hard on yourself in your "About Me" on your home page - you say what you feel honestly and openly and in a very readable and touching way, embellishing it with a bigger vocabulary wouldn't make it better at this point. As you grow into your years you will find the words for them.
2013-04-28



I doubt it's much consolation to point out that everybody experiences loneliness at some time. Sometimes we just need to go with that loneliness for a little bit and try to figure out how we got there and how to move on. Being creative (like writing the very poignant and sincere poem you just wrote) helps. For me it sometimes works to just do something--go for a walk in the woods, call someone, email someone, cook myself something special, etc. Those walls are not impermeable.

William
2013-04-28