Nostalgia

On days like this I hate you
weakened and overtaken by tiredness and sorrow
curled up, alone
crying tears of frustration, anger and self-hate
on my kitchen floor

On days like this I hate him for ever making me believe he'd catch me when I fell
into him
for denying he ever fully believed in us
when I, fresh and young, put my whole life and future in his arms
silly and young - depressed and young

On days like this I hate you for never being there when I needed you the most
for causing me to have to search in the safest depths of my mind
and in the arms of idealistic men
what you should have been able to give me for free

These are the only days I think of you

Lately,
there are too many of these days




Poetry by SecretWords The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2012-02-10 at 22:51

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