A song from several years ago. I love this - the tune, the honesty of it, that it says what I couldn't possibly say in any other way. Just knowing that it exists, helps. Yes, I really am this crazy.


Dear Everyone,


I'm sorry but I can't get close to you
You don't know what I could put us through
I'm really not okay right now
Tryin' but I can't climb out
You don't know what I could put us through

(I feel alone
Cliched, alone
I feel alone
All alone)

Open hands are outstretched in vain
Unfocused eyes don't want to disclose pain
I'm stumbling blindly in the dark
The dog that bites but does not bark
You don't know what I could put us through

(I feel afraid
Cliched, afraid
I feel afraid
So afraid)

Still life goes on day after day
I smile if I can or look away
I know that you don't understand
I know it must seem underhand
I'm tryin' but I can't get close to you

(I feel alive
I Know I'm alive
I feel alive
And so dead, too)




Poetry by StillHoppin The PoetBay support member heart!
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Written on 2013-04-08 at 21:07

Tags Song  Anxiety  Loneliness 

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Wish I could hear the tune, ... well written...
2013-05-15



"(I feel alive
I Know I'm alive
I feel alive
And so dead, too)"

I can't explain how hard these words hit home. It's something I've been thinking on over the past few weeks. I'm battling the fine line between life and death, even in the smallest things. (Why do I do anything that I do?) I don't think you're crazy... Just honest.
2013-04-11


Commentally Ill
dear stillhoppin,

i'm sorry but you can't get close to me. not with a stench like that. a tic tac for the toe smell? then we'll talk.

c.i.
2013-04-09


countryfog
This takes me back too many years to admit to, to a time and a someone I've not thought of but should have. She said as much and I didn't listen, and I should have done that too. Conflicted and confused perhaps but not crazy. Very evocative and no doubt the music only adds to its emotion.
2013-04-08


F.i.in.e Moods The PoetBay support member heart!
I wish I could hear the tune. I'm imagining it, but it may not be what yours is like :) I like the straight honesty of this, this is what is, take me as I am type of air to it. I also like the contradiction of the last lines :

"I feel alive
And so dead, too"

I don't know how to put it into words, put this describes the feeling so very well. Like being trapped in between parallel worlds. As always, my mind is on a field trip with your words and the images they conjure up :)
2013-04-08