- 3 weeks at my new job done... it's not been easy, but I've been managing really well so far and enjoying myself... except for yesterday... the most challenging day I've come across yet... sorry long and not exactly exciting, but it's what's going on...

The work laptop I was provided

Is a Mac, and it's my first experience

Really working on one.  So, not all

Too familiar with this system yet, plus

I have no admin access to anything,

Naturally, so it's making things a little

Annoying to have to depend on an IT dept.

Slows things down very considerably.

Yesterday, pretty much all day,

I had no access to my work accounts

Because of a username issue that

The dear IT dept had to change recently

Due to an error they made when they

Set it up.  They'd put one of my first

Names as my family name and so

Broke their own naming convention.

But they forgot the basics of updating

The new username in all of their systems

And networks, so when I restarted

My laptop that morning, I needed

A recovery key from admin to

Continue the bootup to the desktop

(Some system crash had happened).

The dear entered the key, and that's

When my horror furthered that day.

First, the Wi-Fi wouldn't connect

Anymore; of course, username...

Then once that was recovered,

All of the laptop was completely

Reset as a new user would have it.

And all of my work accounts

Didn't recognize me for login.

The tech wasn't in the building

Anymore by the time I realized

My accesses were all gone.

There was absolutely nothing

That I could do but wait for

The tech to be available.

When he was, he remotely accessed

My laptop, and reinstated most of

My accounts, the others I'd have to

Go through the Pay dept, and the

Specific software dept to recover those.

So, it was a lot of steps, a lot of waiting,

To then by four pm, finally have all

Of my accounts back... but the day

Was over.  I missed every part of

What I was supposed to work on

Yesterday, and it deeply upset me.

So much so, that at lunch time,

I went outside to an isolated

Spot on the side parking lot

And let the tears come out.

I seriously felt awful about the

Whole situation, and all I wanted

To do was evade it, go back home.

So yesterday was an exercise in 

« Gestions des émotions » ;

My anxiety levels were wringing

My neck.  I don't deal well with

Feelings of helplessness, and

Yesterday, there was nothing I

Could do to resolve anything. 

It really overwhelmed me...

Well, I'm very tired too,

'Cause being out of the house,

Travelling and being with

People all day full-time has

Been taking a lot of energy

Out of me, so there's probably

That at play too for how yesterday

Made me react so emotionally.

It's the only day anything like

This has happened so far, so

I'm doing pretty well with my

Adaptation of this new routine

In my life.  Not only that, I'm

Deriving a lot of pleasure from it

As well, the job is just great.

All of the things around it I'm

Working on, but I feel I'll be ok.